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Correspondence from Aleister Crowley to Marion Clarke
24 rue Lamarck, Paris.
23 August 1924 E.V.
Cara Soror,
93.
So glad to get your second letter, some four days later. I hasten to answer.
I have several reasons for thinking that you are right about O.K. being the solution. What puzzles me is why he has not acted spontaneously. I know you were a fine housewoman, and I think he would certainly remember you if you are right about Durlands.
You are quite wrong if you suppose that I ever had any delusions about the possibility of doing things without money. On the contrary, ever since I knew you I have been trying to get money in every way compatible with righteousness because I felt so impotent without it. But there is one point that you possibly miss: it may be a rule of the Gods not to entrust anyone with money who has not been thoroughly drilled by adversity into the impossibility of misusing it or attaching false values to it. I have had the sensation of having more than I knew what to do with, and I have had that of having none at all (to the point of having to go without food for over 24 hours) and I quite see now that without that knowledge, based on experience, I could not be the Holy King I ought to be. I now see, for example, that it should be made quite impossible, in our society, for anyone to be reduced to such straits: it is never really his own fault however it may appear so.
You have had a mild taste of the natural anxieties of such a condition, and with your peculiar experience of labour and immigration problems there should be no reason why the Gods should demand of you any period of actual detention at Ellis Island. You should be able to administer a kingdom in righteousness and love-under-will on your present basis of knowledge.
I quite understand about 'two years ago'. I wrote to you rather severely from various causes which I hope we may soon have an opportunity to discuss, with the correspondence in front of us. As a matter of fact I still feel that you were clinging to certain things. I feel sure of this—because they were ruthlessly removed.
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