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Correspondence from Ninette Shumway to Jane Wolfe
[EXTRACT]
[circa late March 1927]
Beast also sent me money—it means a breathing spell. But I don't dare use it as I should to get myself into shape. I am seriously ill with nervous breakdown and must have better food than we have been having and medicine. I have cut out meat, milk, eggs—all the expensive things, and we must get them back again. Also I must get out of this terribly noisy street and out into the country.
. . . Of course I am keenly aware that my health is but a reflection of my spiritual state and that I have shattered my nervous system by giving in to my loose principles and disregarding my higher impulses. But the kids are bound to my fate, and I must pull through somehow for their sake. It is an awful future that faces them if I give in. . . . Helen [Helen Fraux] will only help if I separate myself from the children and seek work—my parents can't. They are old.
. . . Only Beast, you will give me real help—I trust the Gods will enable you too. And I trust they will be kind to you and ease your way a bit. Alostrael [Leah Hirsig] sent me the Word of the Equinox. I send you and Beast my best Love.
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Ninette
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