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Correspondence from Wilfred Talbot Smith to Aleister Crowley
P.O. Box 1574. Station C. Los Angeles. California.
[12 May 1927]
To Mega Therion
Care Frater
Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
I was glad to receive your letter with promise that the would be sent to me again. For a long time I have had little news of the A∴A∴ as Frater A[chad]'s [Charles Stansfeld Jones] interest seemed to wane a good while before his final break. I have no myself lost interest, but cannot lay claim to it being of a very active kind; and here no doubt lies the cause of my isolation therefrom.
My lack of any special endowments or ability prevent me from lecturing for instance, but also that does not appeal to me as a method of promulgation. The O.T.O. with its system of initiation is much more to my liking but although I was willing to help the man at the helm, doubt if I could steer the ship myself. Again past experience seems to indicate that to put it over without financial backing is impossible in face also of the opposition to engender.
All this, however, does not concern the first half of the equation "Solve" which as yet I have not accomplished. The dryness of the task through lack of any results to give enthusiasm makes one crawl along the path from weariness, and through barrenness of the view ahead one seeks other distractions; so what little I do I am afraid is very intermittent.
My interest in Liber Stellae Rubeae and the like no doubt turned me from the dryness of Yoga but the finding of a suitable 0 [yoni] has deterred me from a proper attempt, as far as I understand them, at rituals of that nature. No doubt my own limitations have been the cause of my not having made the best use of those who have crossed my path. It is difficult, of course, to perform exercises of that kind and not lose ones self in the senses. In addition, the attachment of my mind to one particular manifestation of Nuits (sic) has perhaps created an illusion that none other is so suitable. From some trite remarks you once made in a shocking diary you may remember that conjunction was found to be very difficult in that direction at the time; five years and three thousand miles of space make the attempt more difficult. I have now been by myself in Los Angeles five years, having spent one year in Vancouver after I left Frater A[chad] in Chicago. . . .
Just after receiving your letter I accidentally met Eulalie A. Austin on the street who you may have heard of through Frater A. She was very anxious that I should send to you her greetings, which I promised to do.
Love is the law, love under will.
Very fraternally
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