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Correspondence from Aleister Crowley to Gerald Yorke
Karlsruherstrasse 2. Berlin-Halensee.
Feb 1 [1932]
C∴[are] F∴[rater]
93.
I have no right to ask members of Orders as such to contribute. Your position is different—you being chosen.
[illegible] to Hamilton [Gerald Hamilton] is infuriating. You ask me to show him MSS. in your own charge, MSS. which I have been trying to get in vain for over a year, MSS. which I begged you to bring when you came here, MSS. which I urged you to find and despatch to me when you returned to London!
The wild letter to Bill [Bertha Busch] (which A. handed to her with the £50—thanks) is worse.
I have not touched morphine in any form bar about a dozen minute doses by the mouth in 1917. Bill has had to have injections from a doctor about 4 or 5 times since I have known her on account of extremely severe pain. These lies stink of the swine Germer [Karl Germer]. Please send me the letters in which he makes those statement that I may deal with them. I demand this of you as a Brother Mason, hand over back: and I beg you to think deeply of your Oath as a M[aster] M[ason] and all that it implies.
When you have done as work in your life as I have, you can start to give lectures on idleness—if you can find any one idle enough to listed to you! not till then.
Do cease your debauches with Dean Inge, which cause you headaches; and do remember that since you have not got a job in all these months, you have no commercial value, and are a weakling, and have nothing before you but the workhouse or suicide.
The above reasoning is your own, not mine.
The £50 by the way doesn't count at all as the necessary Magical Gesture. So don't cuddle yourself about it!
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F∴[raternal]ly
666.
Dear boy
Thanks very much for kindness—at last I can pay my [illegible]—[illegible] for your letter—I do not think anybody can teach me anything—as you know I got my housework to do—as I can not afford to pay a help—I am doing cooking, washing, [illegible]—[illegible] an worth it or not, and—at the [illegible] we are living an you can [illegible] give [illegible] much money I have got to spare for [illegible] really ridiculous to listen to such nonsense who ever has told you that rubbish be a big liar.
Any [illegible] arithmetic should teach you how far money can go.
Now then about the prospectus—to talk in your [illegible]—Why the hell did you not send the things you were ask for—You can not expect [illegible] to come over [illegible] London for books where all this things are if I have not [illegible]—Who ever has [illegible]—But I do think you'll think it over and see how [illegible] you were—
You can not really [illegible] that I should loose the battle—I only pretend to be [illegible] but I am proved of my man. Enough for tonight as I have got a lot to run about tomorrow—
Love your
Bill.
N.B. You may as well ask Capt Ochs—about the morphia—he can tell you that I had it in London what the Dr. gave me but never when I was not real ill.
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