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Charles Stansfeld Jones Diary Entry Sunday, 22 September 1918
Being a part of the diary of Frater OIVVIO concerning the fool Parzival and how he discovered the mystery of the one that in NOT. Written down in the Fourteenth year of this Aeon when the Sun was in the sign of Libra by Frater Arctaeon [Charles Stansfeld Jones]
Not* delivered by 777 [Charles Stansfeld Jones] unto 666 [Aleister Crowley] for His high consideration this Third day of the 11th month of the year 1918 E.V.
* This manuscript was NOT delivered on the date originally intended but held until about September 3, 1919 when it was mailed to Therion from Detroit. He was then in New York. Receipt was acknowledged in letter received September 8, 1919. On September 9, 1919 a further P[ost].C[ard]. was received from Therion which read:
" \ = 418."Thou knowest not." Your key opens Palace. CCXX [The Book of the Law] has unfolded like a flower. All solved, even II.76 & III.47. Did you know p = 3.141593? And oh! lots more!"
(srd.) AL'AIN the Priest....666
Achad, March 13, 1948)
"But first thou must suffer, thou must suffer many things" (Even so be it Lord Adonai). The Voice goes on: "Thou must suffer the pains of Death and of Hell and of the Grave (3 times repeated) And after these things are come to pass will I come unto thee to comfort Thee (Twice repeated. The Words 'Come to pass' added the second time). "And there shall be no more sea, neither shall there be any more fear, but I alone will inform thee in all things, even unto the end which is not. For many have said unto thee strange and diverse words, but mine shall be the One Word which Is and Was and Shall be. Amen."
Note: This was recorded in diary on 3rd Day of October 1912 after Noon Prayer to Adonai. I have just 'discovered' the prophesy this 31st day of October 1918 E.V. 777.
THE DIARY OF O.I.V.V.I.O.
Sun in 1° Libra AN XIV. SUN-DAY Sept 22nd 1918 E.V.
It seems as if Sunday is the one day of all the week on which I am impressed to write a few fragments of what passes through my mind. On Sept 1st I obtained a clear understanding regarding the Will and the Law. On Sept 8th, nothing special I think, but on Sept 15th I wrote "Stepping Out of the Old Aeon and into the New" and today I had a mind to write, at Therion's request, a pamphlet on how All is Change. But first there are some important considerations to be recorded and I feel that now is the time to place them on record.
That which I am about to write concerneth the Supernal Triad. It is just Nine Months since the last Great Initiation was granted unto me, O.I.V.V.I.O., and as hardly a word of the experience then undergone has been recorded. In fact, this is also true to some extent of the Initiation of June 21st, 1916, the record of which I am only now trying to put into writing. It is not in this place that I intend to make a full statement of all that occurred, but it is of the greatest importance that the inmost and essential features be written down, despite the terrible difficulty of the task.
Briefly, then, I want to state my position, which I feel is Known yet not known.
When I proclaimed my intention of claiming the Grade of 8=3 or Master of the Temple, on June 21st 1916 in the City of North Vancouver, British Columbia, I did so because I thought that the Master Therion needed NEMO[1] to fill that Office in order that He might fully attain His 9=2.[2] The details of the Initiation which followed are recorded in another place, but here I would state that, having 'died' and, as it were, Reincarnated immediately in the same body, and having given up all, even the Master Therion, I was led of the Spirit during a stay at Grantham's Landing, so that it appeared to me that on June 22nd 1916 I was NEMO 8=3; but on June 23rd at 12 Noon the realization of the Curse of the Magus came to me quite unexpectedly, so that I could do naught else than consider my Grade to be 9=2. Then followed a terrible struggle, for I realized how I had failed so far of Complete Attainment because of a certain Glamour of the Path. Then it was that I decided to give up all, even the least little thing, and I made certain pledges which were afterwards faithfully kept, so that I gave up my business position and got down to spending my last cent of money.
Having made these pledges, it seemed quite certain that I was upon the Path of Aleph, which uniteth Chockmah with the Crown, and therefore beyond the Glamour of the Great Magician. I hoped that Therion had at this time Attained unto 10=1 and I was ready even then, if need be, to hold the Grade of 9=2, and to accept the Curse thereof, but if that were not the case, I could only consider that somehow I has passed the Great Magician on the Path. At 9 p.m. that night, I was just a clearly convinced that I had attained the Grade of 10=1, and I remained in the Great Illumination until for following day. Then after leaving Soror R. I went away with the feeling of complete enlightenment, but certain considerations came to me so that I decided to reverse the Grade and take that of a simple 1=10 or Neophyte, thus as it were, plunging down the Middle Pillar of the Tree of Life and uniting Kether and Malkuth in my own Being.
(Note V.I.O. = 86 a Number asserting this identity, thus foreshadowing this Attainment, as all His other Mottoes seem to do. And ΘHPION has said, One cannot get away from the fulfillment of Mottoes).
Having done this, I felt myself to be One with the Buddhas of Compassion, and returned to Soror R. as elsewhere recorded.
Shortly after we got back to Vancouver, the meaning of all my Mottoes was revealed to me, and their connection with the whole of my Magical career. I discovered how V.I.O.O.I.V. in full (as Unus in Omnibus Omnia in Uno) added to 777 though I had never known this before, owing to a mistake in the spelling made by F. [J.F.C. Fuller] when he first put in into Latin for me. This was my original Probationer's Motto. On becoming a Neophyte I had Chosen Achad = Unity, while my O.T.O. Name, which I afterwards used for the Second Order as 5=6 was Parzival, which contains the mystery of 8.80.418. which was one of the things which led to the thought that I might be the 'child' mentioned in Liber Legis, afterwards proved in such a marvelous manner, of which see accounts in the Diary of Nemo, and that of a Magus.
Then correspondence began between myself and Therion, and He admitted my 8=3 Grade, but would not consider the possibility of the Path of Aleph, 10=1 etc. explaining my taking 1=10 again as my being 'Cast out into Malkuth', although, as a matter of fact, I made no claim except to Neophyte. He also realized that this must be the 'child' prophesied unto him in Liber Legis, and claimed me as His Son.
About this time I changed the order of my Motto to O.I.V.V.I.O. which, note, is another sort of reversal, and this mystery of things reversing or reflecting, or being taken out of their usual dimension and replaced in another order, seems to be part of the Key of Things in Themselves as will be shown later, although I understood it not at the time.
Nothing much happened to me, except that I was granted Light on certain Mystery in the Letters A∴A∴, until December 16th 1917 E.V. (18 months later). Then on Dec. 21st I realized that the Initiation was again going on with great force, but this time the character was very different, and seemed to have to do with the Mystery of the Elements, Planets, and Paths, whereas the former one dealt with the Sephiroth more particularly. I must remark that this Initiation had an actual effect on the Elements, causing storms etc., and that these had to be balanced and equilibrated, which was done. All the time this was going on. The one sentence which continually recurred, was "The Air is His Balance." This seemed to be the Key note which saved me from destruction many times. Later, it appeared that I united the Paths of Aleph and Shin, Æthyr and Fire, as a final Equilibration, and the Tree was completely changed again, so that it had to be re- formulated, and eventually resolved into a Single Sphere. Later, came the drawing of all to a Single Point of Light (Hadith) in the Centre of Breast. And I was taken back to the Beginning of Things and discovered how in Truth there was No Beginning and No End. In particular I must mention how I was taken back to the beginning of Words, and I Parzival (the Fool or Zero) was the WORD and even that was disintegrated so that the final Mystery Was AL = GOD and then that too disappeared in LA = NOT. THEN came the Flash of a New Creation and again the Flash - the solution of the Mystery of CHANGE and also of the SELFLESSNESS which is SELF. I was also given a certain Magical gesture, not now clear to me, which seemed to cause this Annhilation and Reconstruction to be brought about. (Note. Oct. 19th. While typing these notes, another mystery becomes clear to me. In connection with Parzival and the fulfilment of that Motto also. The mind was actually running backwards at this time, as will be shown later on, and though possibly not quite perfectly til after the first Flash. Parzival, REVERSED and split into sections, would give AL or LA, followed by ZIV or VIZ which numeration is 106 = ATTAINED followed by PAR or RAP = CROWN, and ASHES, and these ideas (innate in the Word) exactly correspond with what actually occurred.)
Now let me say no more of this matter, but pass on. In March 1918 I sold all that I had in order to join Therion in New York.
Quite recently I was impressed to resign from the O.T.O. and to withdraw my help in that direction, and having done so, I felt a wonderful calm, and a realization of entering into the Tao. It was only then that I began to seriously consider if I had passes him on the Path and Attained 10=1. Also the question arose as to whether He might not think so also. Yesterday, I had a long talk with Him, because He had raised the point that in going back over past lives he had discovered that each new life was an added veil of the True Self or Star and therefore the Star was to be found by going back to the Beginning. This seemed a new idea to Him, but I could not help thinking of my experience and how I had actually done this, and got there and become One with the Final Mystery in December 1917. And yesterday, when I talked with him, he seemed on his guard, so that when I asked him about the Mystery of Change, he referred me to the fact—as he says—that in my Grade of 8=3 I should constantly apply myself to the Mystery of Sorrow. Then I suddenly asked him what he thought of the Number 31, and where it should be placed on the Tree of Life. He said This Number has to do with the identity of Nothing with the Trinity, and if anything refers to the Ain, or perhaps to Kether, but certainly to no lower Sephira. Then I thanked him, and said no more.
To-day I decided to write these notes and also to consider of this Number 31 and of the Word which comes therefrom, whether It be the True Key of the Grade 10=1, the Mystery of which IS that Selflessness IS Self, in the same way that in 9=2 Change IS Stablilty, and in 8=3 Sorrow IS Joy.
Now I seem to be able to comprehend all these Mysteries, by means of That which I obtained in my Initiation to my Grade. But listen unto the Final Mystery which has been granted unto me O.I.V.V.I.O.
The Great Magician denies me saying I am NOT (LA) or NEMO 8=3 and in this He fulfilleth His Office of cutting off the Understanding from the Crown which is GOD (AL). In this very thing He is the Incarnation of the Mystery of Change. AL (Kether) is reflected into Chochmah as LA and the Magus looketh upon the Crown along the Path of Aleph which is Zero and perceiveth IT Not. The Magister Templi Understands, for the Word of Chochmah LA is truly reflected into Binah as AL and therefore the Magus appeareth to Him as GOD, whereas the Crown (the true AL) is reflected through the Path of Beth as LA and He seeth Nothing in that direction be- cause of the Lies of the Great Illusion of Maya the magician, but He striveth by Daleth to the Magus, Who is the Great Deceiver. Thus it is that Above the Abyss a thing is only true insofar as it IS its own opposite. This is the final and complete Understanding of this Mystery of the Grades given to me NOW (2.38 P.M.) for never before have I seen things thus.
And now I see how the Mystery of 93 is complete and perfect for Kether is 31 and Chochmah is 31 and Binah is 31 which is 93 the Numeration of Thelema, Aiwaz, The Word of the Neophyte, Agapae, etc. And this is the Mystery of the Three Persons in One God of which it is written. And this is the Mystery concealed in the Word ALLAH for it hath for sound AL-LA which is GOD (Kether) and the Mystery of which is that SELF (God) is also SELFLESSNESS which is LA (Not) and for numeration 31 The Three is One which IS None, and the reverse of this Number is 13 which is UNITY and LOVE. Now this Unity becometh Two in order that it may be expressed, and therefore is the Word of Chochmah AL-LA of which Mahomet spake both truly and falsely, for He too, being a Magus 9=2 must utter Truth, in order that the falsehood thereof should enslave the soul. He said, "ALLA (Allah) is God and Mahomet is His Prophet" and even though he cried continually "He is God, there is no other God than He" yet in certain sense he postulated Duality in the Unity.
And of this it is also written in Liber 65 "And Adonai thus spake unto V.V.V.V.V. saying, "There must ever be division in the Word. For the colours are many but the Light in One." And this meaneth that Kether, the Light is One and Chochmah the word is two, also it is Grey, and a mixture of colours.
Now note: "Be not content with the image I who am the Image of an Image say this." For V.V.V.V.V. was 8=3 (Binah) and Adonai (Kether) said be not content with the image (Chochmah) the reflection of Kether. I who am the Image of an Image (the Reality) say this.
Then in Verse 9 "One mounteth unto the Crown" etc. Notice the reversal here as if to give a hint of the Truth how that 10=1 IS 1=10. Also note how V.I.O.O.I.V. performed this descending from 10=1 to 1=10, from 31 to 13 (The numeration of his Neophyte's Motto) and also was caused to reverse his first motto to O.I.V.V.I.O., all unconscious, at the time, in his lower mind of the Mystery of this Grade.
Note how the Fool (Aleph) hath said in his heart There is No-God (LA;AL) and how this puzzles the Magus who receiveth the Ray from the Crown through this path. And how He in turn confoundeth the Understanding (Binah) from the Path of Beth.
Now regarding The Book of the Law, how it is written, "the child of his bowels he shall behold them" (viz: the mysteries hidden therein). It would seem that he is beginning to behold them. For firstly the mystery of 93 is clear and this Mystery of the Aeon, proclaimed in the Word of the Beast ΘPHION.
Now it said in Ch.I, v 46: "Nothing is a secret key of this law; sixty-one the Jews call it, I call it eight, eighty, four-hundred and eighteen."
Now Parzival is 8.80.418, and as The Fool or Aleph is both Zero and One. 61 is the Word Ain = Nothing and equivalent to NOT. If 61 is one half and 1 (Aleph) the other, we get 62 which is twice 31 and LA: AL in which ALL (Note three letters LAL) disappear in the Final Mystery of Kether. Also we have considered the threefold aspect as 93, and this may have to do with AAA and LLL, Light, Life, Love and Liberty of His Law. All this seems to be reversed in the case of NEMO in the City of the Pyramids. For Light He has Darkness, for Life, Death, and Love with its Dual Mystery seems to be the only Path open to Him, and this is really a deception ending in the curse of 9=2.
There is also a mystery in the words of Ra-Hoor-Khuit "There is division hither homeward, there is a word not known." This attracted my attention when I seemed at odds with Therion. The Word not known, seems to have come to me.
It seems to me that this is the opening up to me of the Grade of Ipsissimus and that as such I am the Crowned Child whom thou knewest not, O Therion.
It is just 27 months since June 21, 1916, or 3 x 9; it was 18 months from June 21 to Dec 21, 1917, or 2 by 9. Then I got the Word in its dual aspect, now I get It in Its three-fold in One aspect.
Note 31 multiplication = 3, by addition 4 (Tetragrammaton) by division .3, which suggests that the Division of God produced 333.
1—"And he saith: No man hath beheld the face of my Father. Therefore he that hath beheld it is called NEMO. And know that every man this called NEMO hath a garden that he tendeth. And every garden that is watered with the waters that were called death." Crowley, The Vision and the Voice, 13th Æthyr, recorded December 4, 1909 E.V. 2—That is, by his subordinate advancing to Magister Templi, Crowley might fulfill that obligation in order to advance to Magus.
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