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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Wednesday, 28 August 1901
The result was that I felt a throbbing in my head, principally at the spot concentrated on. I hereby formulate unto myself a Vow of Silence for a period of at least three days. My time to be occupied by Nadi-Yami and Â’sana, also by meditations of the Buddha and “Aum Mani Padme Hum.” The vow to begin from Midnight. This vow I took ceremonially.
11.40 p.m. - 12.7. Suddhi. Very painful and jerky, especially Rechaka. Â’sana much pain on moving.
7.40 a.m. - 7.55a.m. Suddhi. Result was better, but goes off whilst meditating on “Aum Mani Padme Hum.”
10.3 a.m. - 10.50 a.m. Began Mental Muttering of “Aum Mani Padme Hum” meditating on Buddha. This developed into Pratyâhâric Dhâranâ; loss of Ego and a vision of mysterious power; loss of all objects mental and physical. I do not know how long this lasted I woke meditating Anahata. The voice of Nada was like a far-off solemn song; it became “Aum” only, dropping “Mani Padme Hum,” and then was more like thunder without harmonics.
Did Dhâranâ on Anahata.
11.45 a.m. - 12.15 p.m. Suddhi. Â’sana very painful.
12.15 p.m. - 1.0 p.m. Meditation on “Aum Mani Padme Hum,” and sleep.
4.15 p.m. - 4.45 p.m. Dhâranâ on Anahata with “Aum Mani Padme Hum.” The latter sounds like the flight of a great bird in windy weather.
5.50 p.m. - 6.20 p.m. Suddhi. When meditating on my bronze Buddha I obtained a great standing self-luminous but rayless Buddha.
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