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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Saturday, 7 September 1901
Lost my nose: could not think what I wanted to find and then (when I remembered) where to look for it! (This approaches "neighbourhood-concentration").
As before: but muttering "Namo Shivaya" etc. I was (a) conscious of physical background seen after nose had vanished (b) conscious that I was not conscious of these things. These (a) and (b) were simultaneous. This seems absurd: is inexplicable; is noted in Buddhist Psychology: yet I know it.
11.0 a.m. - 11.5 a.m. Dhâranâ on nose.
11.10 a.m. - 11.13 a.m. Dhâranâ, covering face with a sheet of thick white paper. Very complex phenomena occur.
But this production of two noses seems to be the falling back of the eyes to the parallel. Everything vanishes.
11.45 a.m. - 11.51 a.m. Dhâranâ. Ditto. There are two noses all the time. The delusion is that you think your right eye is seeing your left nose!
6.10 p.m. - 6.50 p.m. Prânâyâma 7 minutes 5. 10. 20; 6 minutes 10. 20. 30. Dhâranâ on nose 9 minutes 50 seconds. I actually lost the nose on one occasion, and could not think what I wished to find or where to find it; my mind having become a perfect blank. (Shri Mâitrânanda say this is very good, and means I approach “neighbourhood-concentration”). Six minutes more at 10. 20. 30. Forty min-utes in the Â’sana.
10.20 p.m.- 10.34 p.m. Mentally muttering “Namo Shivaya Namah Aum” I did Dhâranâ as before on my nose. I understand one Buddhist constipation now; for: I was (a) conscious of external things seen behind, after my nose had vanished, i.e. altar, etc.: and (b) conscious that I was not conscious of these things. These two consciousnesses being simultaneous. This seems absurd and inexplicable, it is noted in Buddhist Psychology, yet I know it.
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