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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Friday, 4 May 1906
A∴[1] very energetic on my part, intensely so, better perhaps than ever before. However (or perhaps because) there was little vision. Indeed, this work of A∴ requires the Adept to assume the women's part: to long for her bridegroom, it may be, and to be ever ready to receive his kiss; but not to pursue openly and to use as it were force.
Yet the K∴[ingdom] of H∴[eaven] suffereth violence; mat it not be, though, that such violence should be used in order to attain that passive state? And of course, to shut out all rivals? Help me, thou Holy One, even in this; for all my strength is weak as water, and I am but a dog. Help me, O Self-Glittering One! draw nigh to me in sleep and in waking, and let me ever be as a wise virgin, and expect thy coming with a lamp of oil of holiness and beauty! Hail, beautiful and Strong One! I desire thy kisses more than life or death.
1—This indicates the Invocation of Augoeides.
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