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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Sunday, 21 April 1907
XI – 8
This must stop!
Reading Molinos [Miguel de Molinos].
7.00, about. Cut my hand severely; either Brer Bartzabel or Tankerville's [Lord Tankerville] friends—Rota says latter.
The 7th series of 14 , not written under the stress of hunger, but on a prearranged plan to describe rape from the passive's point dating from (I think) Binah in Series I.
After Turkish Bath.
1.26. On [ . . . ] for half an hour, invoking Geburah forces.
Finished Molinos.
2.25. Cut [ . . . ] deep, deep, deep!
2.50. Praying.
4.00. After this curious state, part prayer, part reverie, part sleep, I arise and take chocolate, Also st
4.15. I take 30 drops F.E. Anhalonium Lewinii (March 15, 28 drops useless).
4.55. Have been working on V. of W. Think some slight result—no, I don't.
6.30, after prolonged meditation—nuffin come of it. Abandoned the unequal contest; and began to write a 14 of 14ns concerning the pleasure of being raped, or, the pleasure of pretending. It is a question of art.
And completed the same, reconciling the opposites in the Majesty of Him in whom and by whose favour all is one.
Meditation required: "How to spike the Dvaitist guns."
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