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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Tuesday, 8 October 1907
C again fears to come.
(Continuing meditation on and off—more feeble than ever I was in my life!)
P 6.35. Took 2 gr. Cann. Ind. in the hope of loosening the girders of my soul.
8.0. No shadow of result of any sort. Mens causia recti [?], I tried olive oil about 7.45.
Shall eat a small meal of sorts to try and bring out the hashish.
Ate a peach and some potted partridge.
(Good hathayoga practice: Hold one leg in opposite hand. Repeat mantra. When practiced, revolve body on hips, rhythmically. Simple balance for 5 minutes can be done right off.)
About 9.35. Light-blaze
9.48-10.3. Pranayama 10. 20. 30.
The Goddess Kālī appeared very black but strangely beautiful. Also tried to reach her glory, and I was too fearful or dull—I know not which.
10.20. Very sleepy. Heard astral bell again—the r-r-r-r-r-r-r-r-r one.
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on
head—very brilliant. Later head swelled and became like the
bright night-sky filled with fleecy clouds.