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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Wednesday, 18 May 1910
May 18, 1910. Anhalonium lewinii.
1:30. Lunch—light. No alcohol.
2:15 P.M. I am slightly congested cerebrally, and see a færy flush of yellow and red over Venice on closing eyes.
3:00. One seems to get moving-pictures of things last seen before closing eyes made luminous.
3:05. Thought-intensity exaggerated, and time sense a little altered. Very slight nausea.
3:10. Out in gondola in sun. No visions.
3:18. Purple eagle with two heads bearing a long trumpet. No true visions.
3:25. Jag of white flame on left eye only. But how can we tell? It's a subjective feeling in the eye.
3:37. I who am all and made it all abide its separate Lord.
Normal red eyes-shit sunlight effect. Stained with emerald serpentine.
4:15. Vision of horrid cad.
The horrid cad does not want the wonderful seer.
Yes,————.
What a foolish creature you are.[1]
6:10 Though no visions are occurring, there seems a lot of psychological sensitiveness about.
With a veil in a lace shop, I had
a wonderful vision of
7:40. The active man is the normal; but he tires, and seeking rest in passivity, finds the passive man a neurotic, restless, impatient person.
8:30. After dinner with Chianti it is as if I had taken nothing.
1—In the MS, Crowley's handwriting is profoundly changed by the drug's effects, with a pronounced leftward slant; he even misspelled serpentine as "surpentine." The records for 4:10 and 4:17 are heavily scored through but still barely readable in MS; the probable reading is restored in the text. From the context it appears that Crowley picked up a man, which would explain the precaution of deleting the passage and the subsequent reference to "Alys." 2—ALYS, Crowley's name for his feminine persona.
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White R[ose] and C[ross] azure ground.
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