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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Monday, 11 December 1911
9:30
Seer being excited by a half bottle of Pommery 1904, and by Eros, opened T[emple] by “[Liber] 671.” Toward end S. cried ‘‘The Beast!’’ amid her groans.
It is now 9:49.
9:50
S[eer]: The Beast has come in here. He opens his mouth. Many characters come therefrom—J or I and then Uranus. He says, ‘‘You shall go on till the end’’.
P[erdurabo]: Describe the Beast.
S[eer]: Great God! - - - - - - - He’s tremendous. Like an oxen (!!!) and between his two horns lies another curled horn. (Groans) It comes down over his face. The half of his right foot is white.—It’s an arrow, and below the arrow is letter V. I. only want The Truth, The Truth, The Truth.
P[erdurabo]: What is his name?
S[eer]: I think it’s Uranus—(?) Eros maybe. (S. becomes quite unintelligible). He has a gilded hoof. (Old man and all brethren in white are here.) They’ve all their hands on same bar in shape of U. Their hands are mailed.
9:58
S[eer]: You may ask what you like tonight.—47 or 477.
P[erdurabo]: What is your real name?
S[eer]: Ura, and then flashing in a flame I see Surt (Ora)—I always see Crown and Cross.[1]
10:00
S[eer]: (S. again inaudible). I am to serve and he is a master who can command. O.H.O.[2]
P[erdurabo]: Meaning?
S[eer]: Initiation.
P[erdurabo]: Who’s he?
S[eer]: You (P.) must make the test.
P[erdurabo]: Test of whom?
S[eer]: Of the one to be—Absolutely!
P[erdurabo]: Does ו follow יה ? (Will there be a son?)
S[eer]: No.
P[erdurabo]: Does ה follow? (Or a daughter?)
S[eer]: No.
P[erdurabo]: Will Π get Λ of Λ? ([Will P. get] love of this life i.e. L.W. [Leila Waddell])
S[eer]: It comes. It’s poised.
P[erdurabo]: Will N. (= Crowley) do what he proposed?
S[eer]: He has.
P[erdurabo]: Not yet, surely!
S[eer]: He has. The deed is father to the thought.
P[erdurabo]: What will happen to R.? (. . . . . .)
S[eer]: He will act rightfully as in the past.
P[erdurabo]: Then he is only a fool?
S[eer]: He counts for his weight only.
P[erdurabo]: Tell me about this Book IV or Aba.
S[eer]: It’s the most important. You’ll find it unexpectedly.
P[erdurabo]: When . . . . .
S[eer]: Wait! Be patient! Work! Deny nothing! The simplest things mean most. You’re on the way. The Book IV means freedom to all. It’s the Light.
P[erdurabo]: When shall I next meet a Brother in the flesh?
S[eer]: When you know him! He’s waiting for you. Know him by crossed hands. He too has a ring.[3] Wait! Wait! Wait! We are with you. Your work is not yet done. Out of your life shall come many. There are three bars to cross[4] . . . . . . Sacrifice ? France—I can’t make it out. By the blood of Oedipus! (?) (S. unintelligible). On thy feet shall hoofs be added for speed. Because of the Great Way to go. Scorn not the means. Ask what you will. But remember they are all there.
P[erdurabo]: I.l.n.i.t.b.p.e.? (Is last night’s instruction to be punctually executed?)
S[eer]: Yes: but move. Ask again. There are great events happening and you are too doubtful; have confidence.
P[erdurabo]: M.w.a.t.i.o.l.n.? (May we alter the instruction of last night?)
S[eer]: No . . . . . 29. You are the test. Obey. She serves.
P[erdurabo]: When shall we speak again with him?
S[eer]: To-night if you will you can know all. Only ask clearly. All are here; the 11, the 5 and the 6.
P[erdurabo]: What is the meaning of ‘‘106 seasons’’?
S[eer]: Equals 6—7 or 671.
P[erdurabo]: Yes: but what period of the time of earth?
S[eer]: The tenth.
P[erdurabo]: 10th what?
S[eer]: Ćon. (I see 3 x s and x y).
P[erdurabo]: Is P. the L[ogos] of the A[eon]?
S[eer]: He’s the D. of the A! I see Retirement written.
P[erdurabo]: What does D. stand for?
S[eer]: 0417. He shall be the 4th of the 11.
P[erdurabo]: Am I right in my guess? (D. for Darmion).
S[eer]: No. Wait. Wait. Wait. You will have proof.
P[erdurabo]: What does D. stand for?
S[eer]: For 4 in 11.
P[erdurabo]: Isn’t it a word?
S[eer]: Yes.
P[erdurabo]: What word?
S[eer]: The sign.
P[erdurabo]: What sign?
S[eer]:
P[erdurabo]: When are we to see them again?
S[eer]: Oh God! I hope never! I’m dead. I’m dead.—I won’t tell you. I won’t. I’m tired. I won’t be here on the 13th. I’m going away. I won’t (ad liber) (Screams and groans and sighs). The chain’s woven all but the last 3 links.
P[erdurabo]: At what hour on the 13th?
S[eer]: 9.
P[erdurabo]: Then Vale, Frater. S.V.A.T. Hadit.
10:26
Previous to the Orgie and Incantations, S. was lying drunk on the sofa; the 11 came to her and gave her mystic gifts, one knowledge, another power, another wisdom, etc. and said it was all for the Cause. They sealed the gifts basiculo ad cunnum.[6] The last one said, ‘‘I’ll bring you the seed from which fruit shall come.’’
1—Note: Ura = 207 = Aur = Light. Surt = Sorath = the Spirit of the Sun = 666. 2—[P.S.]: O.H.O. is the Title of the Brother who initiated me to O.T.O. 3—[P.S.]: This again is true of the O.H.O. both as to the Sign and the Ring. 4—[P.S.]: S[eer] left me in Naples (1), London (2), (3)—.
5—Note this sign
6—[Latin, "with a kiss to the cunt."]
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That’s all. I’m tired.