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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Saturday, 24 July 1920
3.55 a.m. Opus[1] IX, 31-666-31 [Leah Hirsig]. Operation; long-prepared, then spontaneous, violent. Orgasm: immense, my soul dissolved entirely. Elixir: very copious and unusually sweet and rich. Object: to make that which Alostrael's [Leah Hirsig] Graal means to me, the World's Desire.
7.00 a.m. Opus[1] X, 31-666-31. Operation: Intense, excessive-the most prolonged I can remember. Elixir: as in Opus IX. Object: Itself—and the Eucharist to nourish us therein.
8.00 a.m. After coffee.
The 'sexual act' completed is to a man full physiological satisfaction; to a woman, a mere louis tossed on the cloth 'en plein'. If, then, a trouseriferous, whiskerogenous, laryngomegalic, phalloportative human body be twinned with Phaedra soul, 'half a woman made with half a god', the He-Life runs its course in health, but the She starves, and yet lives and grows by starving. The He dwindles contentedly in its due season; the She increases in inverse ratio. (This is true even if the She has been indulged by such enjoyment as it can obtain.) This She, insatiable, may weary of her futility, and seek to rob her He by finding masters in his servants.
1—[Crowley conducts a magical sexual operation.]
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