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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Wednesday, 24 November 1920
Opus[1] VIII, 321-666-31, p.o.[2]
1—[Crowley performs a magical sexual operation.] 3—[C. F. Russell's number in the A∴A∴] 4—[The Hebrew letter Pe means a mouth, in other words, the two magicians practised fellatio.]
I have been revising the Comment on Liber Legis with aid of Alostrael, Iacchaion [C. F. Russell] and Estai [Jane Wolfe]—Cap II with Iacchaion only. I cannot express myself adequately about my sense of failure in this comment. More, I feel that I have not conquered my repulsion to Chapter III. I ask myself too: have I ever tried to carry out the instructions in that chapter? I am utterly wretched about the whole matter. I say: have I not failed absolutely to obey the 'Heavenly Vision'? I am so miserable that I can only see one course of action: to "ask the YI to give a General Symbol for my past work in relation to the Book of the Law.
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