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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Monday, 3 March 1924
[in the handwriting of Norman Mudd]
11 p.m. As soon as a thing begins to have form it begins to have beauty.
11.15 I have aeon-long trials before my conscience:—I complain to O.P.V. [Norman Mudd]. Have I ever done anything of any value, or am I a mere trifler, existing by a series of shifts of one kind or another? A wastrel, coward, man of straw? I can find no answer whatever, the obvious verdict being every time "Guilty". (Appeals to O.P.V. for a criticism on judgment.) O.P.V. is at first amused. Affirms that the question is essentially unreal and quotes:—"Thou hast no right but to do thy will. Do that and no other shall say nay."
Beast: "You have probably saved my life". Stated also that he had prophesied* O.P.V. would quote the Book of the Law.
*[In the handwriting of Aleister Crowley] any other assurance would have been abused; I gave O.P.V. credit for perceiving this.
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