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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Monday, 29 December 1941
[I Ching hexagram] 13.
5 3/4 Woke 241 [asthma symptoms] bad (1)[Heroin] severe mental unrest.
7 1/4 241 again—no bath—worried (2)[Heroin].
A really bad frame of mind all the time: “homesick” is the word! This is of course identical with the will-to-die, and comes out in that form every time one makes a plan.
9 o’c Picking up, but I miss my bath, & the weather is black, black! (3)[Heroin].
12 still not bursting with energy! (4)[Heroin].
3 1/4 anticipating trouble (5)[Heroin].
7 1/2 241 Diarrhoea & the rest M&A[tropine] rather in despair!
Talk with Mike and Michaud [Jean Michaud].
Settled with Pickford’s—as easy as fire(?).
Christ-Child [Vyvyan Deacon] called unexpectedly.
Frieda [Frieda Harris] and the unfinished(?) Nick ditto ditto: stayed to tea. She flats at Kensington Close. She brought new Juggler [artwork for the Tarot card].
Bruce Blunt wrote tome.
Letter from Estai [Jane Wolfe].
Robert Cecil wrote tome.
Wrote practical letter to Saturnus [Karl Germer].
Did nick’s horror [horoscope].
F’s infallible instinct did not desert her at his birth! She told them to throw it back.
8 people for this Thung Zan.
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