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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Friday, 2 January 1942
[I Ching hexagram] 57.
4 Woke 8 3/4 (1)[Heroin.
10 (2)[Heroin].
11 1/4 (3)[Heroin].
2 1/4 (4)[Heroin].
5 1/4 (5)[Heroin] to Studio 2—
Ill: sweating. had meant M&A[tropine], but—(6)[Heroin]. (I was afraid M&A wouldn’t relieve symptoms at once, so changed at last moment. See [I Ching hexagram] line 6).
Very depressed: the ‘futile’ feeling. Went on all day.
Got rid of Alice at 5:
Put off MAS [Maurice A. Sutherland] & went to bed.
9 1/4 241 [asthma symptoms] v.[ery] bad: M&A.
Studio Two: dreadfully bad newsreels, a foul “rhapsody”; even a “Crime does not pay” dull & padded. It actually made me ill!
I am now quite sure that indigestion in some form is responsible for much of my weakness & distress. Would Yoghourt plus no meat plus Uricedin [medication for gout]—ersatz help? Will ask Greta and perhaps [Dr.] Crawshaw: might try it out for a few days.
I stayed in bed, quiet,
Felt OK. As soon as I was disturbed, the fuss began.
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