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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Thursday, 17 July 1969
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 0.05am, begin invocation of Genii of Scorpio. End about 0.15 am. Utmost difficulty. Several visions: jeweled interiors, flashing; it occurs to me now that maybe it was the chamber of C.R.C., since of course the symbol pertains to it—the Seal of the Geni, I mean. (Incidentally, 120 = Qoph + Kaph. But then, also, the LXV symbol; only, this is not a number; no confusion with LXV, please!) Tried rising in the planes, with the Seal on my crown. Very hard. I banished several aspects of vision. Finally, invoking by calling the Geni's name, saw a black pyramid in blackness. Was satisfied I had made contact at last, and anointed the Seal.
But am still insatisfied.
About 12.10 pm (local time): Start invocation of Geni of Carcer of Scorpio. Finished about 12.20 pm L.T. [Local Time]. Most insatisfactory again. Started with a view of a cemetery—row upon row of crosses. I assumed the shape of Mars and destroyed it, since death is a lie. Again (as in the previous vision) several symbols. One of them very interesting: kind of a crypt opening, full of orange light and rosy light. Immense: as if it were a stellar cloud. I banished this too (very hard), and kept invoking the Geni. At last it seemed that I assumed his shape; he was present in me (I had his Seal on the crown of my head, of course). I then anointed the image. But am still not satisfied.
Will have, of course, to make all these invocations again some other time.
NIANTIEL = 165. Now, this is a number I've seen before; but what does it refer to? . . .[1]
Thursday, 17 July 1969
About 11.05 pm, L.T., begin Vision of Virgo. Return at 11.20 pm. Went into door. First saw an old man—the man of the New Card.[2] Banished him with the Pentagram of Earth—he did not dissolve. Followed him, therefore, and got to a dark place. There I rose. I invoked Virgo again, having assumed Mercury's shape (Note: The way I write it, it seems as if I was very skilled and authoritative about the whole thing. Actually, it was all quite lamely done.) i found myself on a plain in darkness. Around me were veiled shapes, and I one of them. I recognized them as Masters of the Temple. Then the thought came to me that they are Lucifer, being bearers of Light—and also they are Osiris. So I assumed the Posture of Osiris Risen, though with fingers in Set Mudra. That is, Osiris, but meditating. A sun appeared over the plain, and I banished it. I felt then this had been the right thnig to do. So the Light is in me. And every man and every woman is a star, but it is not all who will the Work of the Hermit. And I thought, Set and Osiris are one—this is the "star that fell onto the earth". And soon after, resolving that it is time to invoke the Genii, I came back to my body.
Comment: This is harmonious with the Constitution of the Order of Thelemites, which refers the Hermit to the grade of M.T. [Magister Templi].
Note: At about this time I did a gesture with the Wand. I think it was the invoking Pentagram of Earth. I do not remember exactly.
I recited the Mantra A ka dua, quite on an impulse, all the time, I think. A part of my conscious mind kept muttering "Go get fucked" in Portuguese, rhyming with the Mantra. This "thing", I felt, does not manifest itself in my Astral Body. Only in the physical brain. Very interesting. It must be a group of cells having to do with Christist ancestors. Or a disciple, maybe? Or enemies.
About 11.35 pm: Begin Invocation of Geni of Dome of Virgo. About 11.40 pm: I invoked the Geni. A bearded man with wand and lamp began to form before me. I almost worshipped this image; at the last moment, banished it. Then felt the Geni was in me. It pleaded for a Word. I kept looking for this Word that I felt I must say. At last, I said NOX, with the Sign. Then the thought came to me that the word of the Geni of the Dome is LXV; the Geni of the Carcer has NOX for its word. I anointed the Seal, and said the word LXV to its central anointing; but then recited the Banishing of Mary inviolate, from AL, and did not say the words "Light of the Cross". Aum. Ha.
About 11.45 pm: Invoke Geni of the Carcer of Virgo. Something wrong: Seal slipped from my head and fell out of carpet.
About 11.58 pm: After that I said B... O..., without effect. I then took the Seal and said the Banishing of the Consecrating Verses from AL. I felt then that the Seal was protesting that I had not yet "banished" the influence of the other Geni. It is not that they are inimical to each other: it is merely that they work at different rates of vibration. I was mixing the planes. So I banished, then invoked, using the Inverted Pentagram of Mercury. I pronounced the Geni's name. I saw an opening for a staircase made of parallelepiped stones, going down. I went down. Then it was a Hexagram, open, and I felt this was the Geni. I went down. And down. I began to feel afraid. I was going really down. I thought: I may get lost in here! Then I thought of the words in Liber Tzaddi: "My adepts stand upright . . ." I assumed the shape of Mercury and went on. I was in Hades. Suddenly I noticed that, although still Mercury, my garments had changed: I was in black—very densely black robes, with a funny hat which was somehow familiar. And the word "Psychopompos" kept coming up in my consciousness. Then I was in a black boat, sliding on black waters. Then I invoked the Geni, and suddenly the Star shone on my forehead. Mercury is also the Guide of the Dead in the Underworld, I remembered—or was reminded by the Geni, I think. I told it to obey me, and I think it replied—by intuition[3]—that it was already on the job . . . (Note: Anubis is thus related to Thoth in a marked manner. That is perhaps why Liber Israfel was formerly called Anubis. Interesting . . .) So I came back—it was very easy. And I anointed the Seal, pronouncing the Word Θελημα at the moment of anointing the centre. Then I banished the Inverted Pentagram of Virgo and wrote this record.
Note: The adverse group of cells has been quiet. I think it was scared by this little trip. . . . Interesting.
Got up at 12.45 am L.T. Did Adoration of Khephra before starting invocation of the Geni of the Carcer of Virgo.
Note: Invoked B-A-H Sign into both Seals.
1—There followed some qabalistic calculations which we omit. Contact had truly been made, with both Genii; but it was years before the Seer really perceived it. 2—That is to say, the Hermit as depicted in A.C.'s pack. 3—Meaning, the answer came up in the Seer's own consciousness.
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