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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Friday, 15 August 1969
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
11.52 L.T. [Local Time][1] Start preparations for Invocation of Aleph.
About 12 L.T.: It was rather easy to "go in". As soon as Hexagram of Air was traced, in fact.[2] Stepped out of the lip of a precipice into the precipice. I was suspended in air. Water far below. A figure started forming before me. Banished it by the Pentagram of Spirit (intuition; normally, should have been of Air), since I am the Fool. (The figure seemed to be The Fool of the Tarot, but A.C.'s.) Very hard to remain in vision: light of lamp no help at all; it disturbs. But I got a feeling of balance and quiet, of being still, and of Equilibrium between the Abysses. Came back; will don robe and invoke Genii.
About 12.25 L.T. (August 16, or course, now[3]); finished invoking Geni. Seems to me achieved it. Will write certain Names on the Page of the Seal: Word of Air, Name of King of Air. Tendency to pronounce word NAGAOKA while invoking the Geni. Why?[4]
(There follow two numerical analyses of the word in question, both omitted.)
Note: Darkness during Geni Invocation. Started by Banishing Pentagram of Spirit and of Air; then, after already in vision, used Invoking Pentagram of Air.
About 12.50 L.T., or 0.50 L.T.; After invocation of the Geni of the Qliphah. Invoked: Saw a dark tempestuous horizon, as of storm, and remembered Aleph means thunderbolt. But it so happens I like thunderbolts and storms! Kept invoking; a mouth appeared to devour me. I called it brother, my brother in NUIT; and the verse came: "Let there be no difference", etc. Also, the Oath of the M.T. [Magister Templi]. I thought: "I am thou" etc. This gave origin to what I felt to be a rather maudlin state—like one who has eaten well and is digesting. I reacted, therefore; on this plane, the Geni must serve me. I called again. Suddenly came the impulse—no, before this, having evoked once more, I felt the Geni was manifest. Also, I became conscious that "I" am a Play of the Waters—my existence is a Point-Event. "If I were a dog, I should bark," as King Lamus says. But since I am what I am, I must act my part, regardless. But no effort is necessary. I am what I am by necessity.[5] All I have to do is to use my faculties, calmly and quietly.
Then came the impulse to recite A ka dua, then to say ABRAHADABRA 11 times. For I must pay homage to Him who gave us Liber AL. But even in this no strain is needed. The Law shall be established because it shall. Nature—NUIT—has willed it, and has manifested. Heru-ra-ha (just as I am manifested as MRM, a writer-producer,[6] etc.) to give it to mankind. No stress is necessary. Things will go because they'll go. It will all come to pass.
So I came back and anointed the Seal and put it away with the other. (I 'got eaten' by Amprodias. . . .)[7]
1—It is not stated in the Record whether pm or am; an inexcusable carelessness of the Recorder, of course. 2—This facility varies from experimenter to experimenter; it is a function of past experience, often acquired in "past incarnations"—that is, genetic in origin. It is a fatal mistake, from the point of view of who would become an Adept—which is to say, a Balanced Initiate—to concentrate on such easy points at the expense of the uneasy, disagreeable, or "dry" ones. 3—Which means, then, that the Skrying was done at night. 4—Most often, such tendencies are personal and genetic, having to do with the summation of past experiences. Sometimes, however, such Words are of more general import. We will be grateful to receive any added information on the Word NAGAOKA from readers and other researchers. 5—The reader is most earnestly warned against adopting this attitude, which is proper only to a Master of the Temple, and will mean, in all probability, utter ruin to anyone below that Grade. 6—At the time, the Skryer was working on the production of a motion picture. 7—This is not explicit in the Record. After calling it brother, the Skryer had allowed the mouth to swallow him. Again, experimenters are most earnestly warned against using this formula, which is proper only to M.T.s.
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