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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Thursday, 23 April 1970
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 0 am: prepare to invoke Path of כ.
Will use Hexagram of Jupiter, but draw the Letter כ.
About 0.09: begin.
0.13: Vision still on. Begin to record.
On invoking, door opened, saw a kind of park, full of
animals. Thought: Garden of Eden? Banished by Pentagram of
Water, then invoked; ibidem by
0.30: Just banished the Vision. I 'returned', as aforesaid. From now on, I think I should write records before banishing Visions; harder to remember after banishing of course. At any rate, confusion seemed to come in; so I banished and invoked by Pentagram, then by Hexagram; and it seems this last one did the trick. When confusion in the mind, Hexagram of Air. Also, I saw a landscape, and then a black eagle appeared over me; but as if it were painted on a canopy. Then, the same eagle in patterns. I refused to "see" the Eagle of the Templars; the tendency was, of course, strong. Assumed shape of King with Sword, and with the sword invoked כ again. Then I assumed the shape of the Eagle and descended. Eventually the Eagle became a dove. Then again I assumed the shape of Amon. Hard to keep. The Phoenix Wand, and ascended with it, and it turned into a Lotus Wand. A tower, enormous, tall. I banished it. Assumed the shape of the Eagle and ascended above it. Banished it by B... O..., and remembered that the Wheel is also the Eye. Ascending more still, I came to Darkness, beyond the Sun Disk (which appeared when I had gone quite high up). A further attempt at invocation turned into a Rose. (I realize now there is a relationship between all this and the O.T.O. Seal). At last, abiding (?? . . . !!) in the Vision, I decided I must exercise the Mind, discipline it. Dharana, and also Liber III. Finally I returned and Banished and wrote this down. It is not quite complete, but most of it is here. It is now 0.43.
Note (remembered later): Towards the end, finding it hard to keep shape of Amon, I assumed shape of Jupiter, but with hand raised in blessing in Sign of Set (and the other, left hand, down). Also, when I wrote above that shape of Amon 'felt successful', I had forgotten what happened: when I assumed the shape, it expanded, becoming gigantic above the landscape above which I wanted to rise.
Note on male symbols turning into female: Zeus Arrhenotelus; also, Kaph is K + Ph in writing.
1—Cf. LXV ii 32.
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Then painted
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in Hexagram of Jupiter again and went in. Ascended a column;
then assumed shape of King on throne, with sword in hand;
then preferred shape of Amon, remembering that Jupiter is
Amon: first one ram head, then four, and a Shepherd's crook;
but then (the image being 'successful'—that is, felt so) the
thought came to me that the Wand should be the Phoenix wand,
with the head of the Set-bird (the phoenix, of course!). And
with this wand I traced a
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(blue) in air and ascended. A "star" (a diagram, actually, a
polygon) appeared, and I banished this. Then I was still
in blue air.