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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Tuesday, 5 May 1970
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 11.55 pm L.T. [Local Time] (officially, May 4): prepare to invoke Geni of Carcer of ט. About 0.02: start.
About 0.21. Having invoked, recited Calls and said Names. Went through Seal somehow. A white lion appeared and opened a red maw to swallow me. I allowed it to. Inside its body was a dark, dark chimney going into the entrails of the earth. I tried to throw myself down it, inciting M. Motta to do so; but M. Motta hesitated (or rather, baulked). So, I assumed the shape of a lion to throw myself in—a white lion with wings—and suddenly I was a white human shape throwing myself into the Abyss. At the bottom (and there was water mixed with this "going down" somehow—though an Hexagram of Ban.[ishing]—Inv.[ocation] I did by mistake and then corrected was of Air, not Water) was a pool of liquid gold. Then I saw the entrance of a temple with a red stone, a ruby (I suppose) ornating it; and then it turned into the face of a meditating Buddha, I think white, with the ruby in its forehead. I banished this by B... O... after using Pentagram and Hexagram, and then it was the entrance to some place in the rock, shaped (the entrance) like a Pentagram. I went in and found myself in a small room. On a wall (the back wall) hung a Hexagram with letters which I am sure was the ARARITA Hexagram. There was a desk and a chair behind it, writing materials (I think) and a book open on the desk. I surmised (wrongly, maybe) this was my office, and sat behind the desk and tried to see in the book. Methinks a hand (mine or another's) turned the pages for me. I finally fixed on the diagram of an ancient lamp, which became tridimensional and turned into a silver lamp.[1]
I saw nothing more after this. Again I used certain invocations. At the Name of B-A-H (after the secret word from AL), the entire scene began to whirl with the Seal. So I assumed a shape which I thought was of Set, but it turned into the Shape of Anubis, holding, however, the Phoenix Wand. And I seemed to be worshipping H-r-h towards Boleskine (First, it seemed to be a White Rose, then H-r-h's throne. But I did not "see" Him, it was just an impression). Then I assumed the shape of Asar. I made invocations with the Phoenix Wand; traced the Name of the Geni, in red characters. When I stopped to write this down it was hard to "come back". I asked for help in the Work—material help too.
At the beginning of the entire Vision, before the lion appeared, for a moment I seemed to see a table set for Mass. I banished this.
Will now anoint the Seal, then banish the Vision.
Note: I asked for any specific advice, but none was forthcoming, either from the Geni or from ΘΗΡΙΟΝ Himself, whom I called.
Done. Finished at 0.43. Did anointing with wrong finger (Saturn) and only corrected at the end, again anointing the Center of the Hexagram with my ring finger.
(Numerical anayses omitted.)
1—In order to read in such books, the physical mind must be very rigorously trained in Yoga, and specially in the practices of Liber DCCCVI, otherwise the physical brain will retain no memory, except of the vaguest kind, of what is seen. The training will also benefit the corresponding astral faculties, since the Astral is "the chariot of the flesh", and not the converse.
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