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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Sunday, 6 September 1970
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 4.45 am: preparations to invoke Path of ש.
About 4.55 am: Start. 5.05 am: finish. Most insatisfactory—or perhaps not. The gist of it seems to be that this Path is connected with Worship—Worship as prescribed in AL. There is no rational "reason" why this should be so. This explains the irrational apparent "blind spot" of members of past religions, in which they contradict all the tenets of their own religions, but go on worshipping anyway. At start, saw an Eye—the Eye of the Hawk (the S.S., of course, it occurs to me now!) in utter blackness. Followed it, assuming shape of R-H-K with flail in left hand, Phoenix Wand in right. (Incidentally, I think it was last night that I discovered one of the Names of the Aethyrs. And this is AIN—which is NOT, of course, not Ayn, as I first thought.) Then remembered that his right hand is empty. Gradually, the Stela as depicted in A.C.'s [Aleister Crowley] Tarot card formed before me, and it was then that I had the idea of worship. Then, the objections appeared. Isn't the Shrine empty? For I am He. And I banished by the Words. And since I am the Son (but I am not the Son, I realize now; I am H., and She is my bride!) etc., I invoked the Seal of B-A-H. (Wrongly, I realize now.) And then I perceived that herein lies the Mystery. For even when I banished, I used the Words of AL. And I did not write AL. And my Seal given by Her, even it, depends on my connection with the Law. All my work hinges on my acceptance of AL. Therefore I must worship. This is the Cornerstone of my entire Temple. Love is the law, love under will. And herein lies the Mystery of past religions. And it also explains their decadence. AUMGN.
P.S. Also, at beginning, thoughts of invoking upside down, then realized this is for the Genii, not the Path itself.[1]
Note: There was some confusion in attempts to banish: the Pentagrams and so forth came out in the blue. Hard to visualize vermillion. (Now it comes to mind: "Blue am I . . ." etc. Ridiculous, of course.)
1—Readers are reminded that the entire series of invocations was done from the Point of View of a M.T. [Magister Templi]—and a particular one at that. Premonitus, premunitus.
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