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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Monday, 12 October 1970
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
1.15 am: Prepare to invoke Geni of Carcer of ת again.[1]
About 1.23 am: Start.
On invoking, a flower garden, with a path, tending towards the right. I assumed the shape of Saturn as an old man, but holding the Phoenix Wand. As I went on, it tended to turn into the Scythe of Saturn. I finally reached something grey (dull grey) which seemed for a moment the Disk (of the Winged Globe). I knocked on it once with the Wand, calling ΘΕΛΗΜΑ. Things got a bit confused. I (stupid that I am! I just realized that I did it wrong!) banished, then invoked by the Averted Pentagram (Wrong, since this is the Carcer! . . .).[2] Not much result. But meditating (and invoking) decided to analyze the Geni's numbers. And the intimation came to me again that (I had forgotten it) The Dome Genii give the way down through the Paths, while the Genii of the Carcers give the way up. And the intimation came to me that the Genii of the Carcers are, in some way, related to me—parts of me—while the Genii of the Domes are related to A.C. [Aleister Crowley]. Then I anointed the Seal, and will now banish the Vision.[3]
1—One may ask, why this persistence, when we see in the case of Shin, for instance, he was satisfied with so little? The question must remain unsatisfactory to members of the lower grades, for the mentations of the Magister Templi always come to the conscious mind as the product of complex unconscious (we use this adjective advisedly, as including both subconscious and superconscious [that is, super-egoic] mentations) gestalts. In this particular case, we might say the He considered it unnecessary to insist on further clarifying the Shin problems because on another level (or several levels) He was sufficiently involved with the operations of the complex of Forces to be able to supply Himself with the information then necessary for His Work; but felt that the same Work needed further data from Tau. But this explanation must remain in the realm of speculation as long as the number of people functioning on that level of awareness we label as Binah (of Binah, yet!) does not increase sufficiently for scientific computation to become practical (or rather, credible!). 2—The Seer had, as we know, come to the conclusion that He should invoke the Domes by the Averse Signs, and the Carcers by the Upright Signs. This perception did not come to Him during the Visions themselves; it was, again, a gestalt due to the accumulation of experiences. We emphasize once more to the serious reader that the perception may be true only for the Seer, and the Grade of the Seer. 3—These "intimations" are obviously gestalts. Whether this one is true (what is "true", anyway?) or not—or true only for the Seer, or generally true to any investigator—can only be established by the old and venerable method of trial and error—the Method of Science. Now, as always, "Success is your proof."
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