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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Sunday, 4 April 1971
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
9.07 pm: Make preparations to invoke Geni of Carcer of ק.
(Note: I was thinking: All right, this is with problem women, but what about problem men? But it occurred to me that both natures are complementary—"problem-men" are "problem-women" in what refers to the qualities or traits treated in each invocation. Query: Right?[1]) Started about 9.15 pm (I believe; forgot to set it down until after grass.)[2]
There is a connection between the
waning moon and the menstruation of a woman.[3]
I must invoke in the
season of the moon, or rather, the Moon, since Gimel is
not the "Moon": there is only one card called the
Moon in the pack. And this explains it: the curses of
"Jupiter-Jehovah" against The Moon
And the Hermit's path has been changed.[4] This, perhaps, is the explanation: that they used for homosexuality; and that is not the Hermit's path in this Aeon. And this is an added meaning related to AL ii 24.
Maybe the explanation is: the Cosmo-psychic conditions do not permit the Homosexual Method as a path for us, Thelemites, to reach Binah. If we recur to it, we shall fall back on Intellect, 4 (and its influence on 6, when it is not related to Binah, is sheer mechanical logic—that is to say, madness—but not recognized as such. Dogma and the status quo, no future. The state of the Black Brother for us—US! = 66.).
Therefore, we must use women. And the
thing is so well explained!
Therefore, going back: I must invoke in the Season of the Moon. This season is holy, as all seasons of Her. The fear and rejection of it come from the Brothers of the Right-Hand Path, or ex-Hermits.[6]
Note: Chesed reaches Binah when—but there is no Path. So, there is a factor infinite and unknown. SHE must desire us; the fitness of the entire Universe must cohere.
But there IS a means: to invoke in the season of the moon!
Note: After finishing invocation at 10.30 pm, the Words of Banishing from AL and the Words of Invocation acquire a new meaning. To Banish is to Release, and to Invoke is to Dominate. The Will dominates the Heart ("I am uplifted in thine heart = I am manifested in thy intelligence, in thy intellect. Also, uplifted!) Also, it is not the Will—it is Had. Or Had is the Will—?[7] In any case, uplifted in thine heart—being the Path that unites Kether and Chokmah, The Fool, uplifted in thine heart, means 666.
333 is the Wind, of course, since 111 is the Air! . . .
I will now check what seems to be pertinent verses of AL and Liber Stellae Rubeae.
1—Right, of course. The so-called conflict of the sexes is laughable from the point of view of the Initiate, who can see the female and male qualities manifesting simultaneously, or alternatively, in men and women. The only reason why women seldom manifest the more constructive "male" qualities is that they have trained themselves not to, throughout the centuries. The feminists wail that woman is oppressed by man, but this "oppression" was the product of an agreement on both sides: the "weaker" sex sacrificed its more positive qualities by sheer inertia and desire for bourgeois sexurity. (If you will pardon the pun!) Feminists should ponder that for many centuries woman had the rearing of men in their hands, and would have been easily able to mold their sons' minds towards a different concept of the relationship between the sexes, had they really wanted to. It is a lie, that people want "freedom". A slave's definition of freedom is merely success without work, prizes without contests, and respect without the need to demonstrate worth. And slaves—of either sex—are slaves because they want to be slaves. You cannot enslave a free spirit—be it manifested in a man's body, or a woman's. It will rather die—or kill—than be a slave. But most people prefer to "live"—at whatever price. And, as you all know, killing others is a very serious sin; specially if they are millionaires, prelates, "aristocrats", "important" politicians, or people's commissars; or representatives of their authority. . . . 2—Henceforth, all Carcer Visions (or almost all) were done under the influence of "wine" and "strange drugs". The Seer had come to the conclusion the Genii of the Domes represented 666 and the Genii of the Carcers represented part of himself as related to the Work of the A∴A∴ This perception may be due to the Seer's grade, or to the fact that 666 is his H.G.A. (or so he thinks!), or may be of more general import; each experimenter must decide as to this by his or her decision, and under his or her own responsibility. A word on the use of drugs: It has always been a matter of wonder to this experimenter that people should use such substances to indulge in "pleasures" of whatever type. He can well understand the use of hypnotics, or even morphine (which he has never used, by the way, it having been unavailable to him up to now), in order to help rest and recuperation of the physical body; but he abhors the very concept of using them to stimulate the Body of Desires towards passive indulgence. "Pot parties" or "cocaine orgies" or even "drunken bacchanals" are repugnant to him, although he has nothing against parties, orgies, and specially bacchanals, should these be entered with a clear mind, a clean body, and a pure will. The energization of enthusiasm is one thing; the production of artificial enthusiasm by means extraneous to one's psychodrama is another entirely. Also, passive abandonment to the illusions of the Astral Plane has always been intensely repugnant to the true Initiates. Debauch is not orgy; the word orgy comes from the Latin orgia, which derives from the Greek, and means, simultaneously, Origin, Energy and Work. Drug addicts are slaves. Crowley, in his early experimentation with the drug, ran a danger of becoming physically addicted to heroin; although the imbecilic John Symonds, in his "biography" of that great man, leaves unclear whether Crowley conquered this addiction or not, Crowley did conquer it, and for many years did not use the drug at all except under controlled conditions. In his late life he returned to the habitual use of heroin out of sheer boredom with life among slaves and intellects of the level of Symonds's, exactly like Sherlock Holmes in Conan Doyle's interesting first novel on this character. Fernando Pessoa, also, the great Thelemic initiate in Portugal, literally drank himself to death out of frustration with the incapacity and cowardice of his own country-men. But these are entirely different situations from that in which the average man or woman becomes an addict to any drug. Including religion, politics, or status. 3—Much of this Invocation has been deleted, for obvious reasons. 4—Many years ago, speaking to a false initiate of great learning, we ventured the opinion that the Hierarchy changes the meaning of the systems of symbology to accord to new factors in the environment. He became very indignant at the idea, since, among other things (he was intensely hostile to Thelema, and has done us as much harm as he could), he was a Jew, and the Qabalah assumed to him an aspect of "holiness" and "immutability" that it has never, of course, had for the Atheists who created it as a mere convenient means of communicating Neschamic apprehensions to Ruachic analysis! . . . 5—At least, at that time! . . . 6—"Brothers of the Left-Hand Path" was the title that the Tibetan Tantrists who practice only homosexuality gave to the Tantrists who used the Negative, that is, the Feminine Spinal Path in worship. The identification of the "Dugpa" sects with the "Black Brothers" so-called was a clever manipulation on the part of Besant [Annie Besant] and Leadbeater [Charles Webster Leadbeater], whose sexual preferences were very clear, and are part of the public record in the law courts of India. There is no "moral" connotation attached to any type of sexual activity. Specially from the point of view of the Initiates, it is merely a matter of convenience. The Purpose is what distinguishes practitioners from each other, not the method. 7—This subtle point can only be solved by an Ipsissimus—if you will pardon the pun!
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The homosexual syndrome. (Note: the Path joining 6 and 4 is
the Hermit.)
Nuit
the Earth. I must