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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Sunday, 15 October 1972
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
1 am, L.T. [Local Time]. Preparations to Invoke Path of Teth Descending, that is Geni of Dome, the Dome being Inverted. To invoke Geni of Qliphah, which is myself, the Seal upright, and wine and strange drugs may be taken. So, all is inverted, or contrary, here.
Have started by rubbing wand with oil, chanting the Great Mantra. Wearing ring, bearing Oil, Wand, Dagger, and AL (as Pantacle); Record (this one) and Book of Seals; also, Liber Thoth and IV Part III.[1] Love is the law, love under will.
Invocation started at 1.15 L.T. Finished 1.34 L.T. Saw deep darkness—and intimation came: "The True Light shone forth".[2] Also, the Officers of the XI° must both be dead—"dead souls". This is associated with 13 and XIII, but also with the death or killing of Desire. This is also the Slaying of the Dragon, in the (deleted). Afterwards, I saw the Stars of Nuit, which seemed strange at the time; but I realize now that, this Darkness being the Darkness of the True Light, Her Light—which is the True Light—must shine forth.
Also thoughts came to me about homosexuality; how or why I don't remember anymore; but the Thought came that the Invoking of the Geni of the Qliphah, with wine and strange drugs, will show my true inclination in this matter.
Also, I invoked B-A-H for helps in Officers. And I remembered C...'s[3] mantra wishing to die. Love is the law, love under will.
Also, I anointed the Seal; and feeling antagonistic thoughts in my brain, called upon Heru-ra-ha and the Words of Banishing. And somehow these can be used in this Work, too, for internal cleansing—or now so it occurs to me. To use them as Mantra.
And now I closed the Book of Seals and will rest.
1—These last two bear Aleister Crowley's signature, so forming an added link. Cf. LXV v 25. 2—This invocation should be compared to the previous one of May 2, 1970 e.v. Obviously, the Seer's magickal perception had developed in the interval, since he achieves a much higher level of awareness. This is the result of persistence in the practices, no matter how insatisfactory the results seem to be. Again, confer LXV v 51-56. 3—One of the Seer's sexual partners, who once, during intercourse, started repeating rhythmically that she wished to die.
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