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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Sunday, 23 March 1975
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 22.19: Prepare to invoke Geni of
יe
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Four strong Khumbakhas. Feel dizzy.[1]
Yamatu = the Path of the Hermit is Death.
Yamatu = 66 = those who are of US.
Formula of the Hermit Formula of the M.T. [Magister Templi]—see Oysters.[2] But "betray not thy egg." Only with US can sex be practiced "unarmed"? This formula limited by reason of my Will in incarnation.
Hermit carries his own lamp. I have made my theory of the Universe. "Persist in thy folly." Read vel Armorum and connected passages.
To attract women you can use magickal signs—including in Abramelin if any. Assume talisman into Thy Self—thou art a M.T. "But always unto me" is also fulfilled in this formula. (The word 'theory' comes to 'mind' that this meant in Liber 156. And now comes "and in Liber NU." Key: "Always unto me." Mistake in Fatima Hotel [desiring to publish and the Visit—in a woman! . . .] was this. And Mistake in not persisting also of that time.[3])
The Geni—whom I assumed in me—has been telling me all this. It is now 22.55. Am going to study position of Virgo in Tree.
(Deleted.)
Seems still the Geni advises me to read Liber Aleph and consider Virgo chapters there.
Finished about 23.14.
1—Perhaps a word should be said about the Seer's use of Cannabis. At most—as in this case—four inhalations in Pranayama style were enough to produce intellectual acuteness of analysis lasting one hour or more. Hence, fifty to a hundred grams of "grass" used to last the Seer an entire year, or more, and be sufficient. He has never taken the drug for "pleasure", and the few times he has taken it "socially", just to be polite, he has regretted it, having suffered acute boredom listening to the conversation of the other members of the party! . . . 2— The Chapter in Liber 333 [The Book of Lies]. 3— During the Crossing of the Abyss the Seer was living under most straightened circumstances (totally unnecessarily, although he only discovered this fact years after!) in a small hotel of that name. On a phase of the ordeals he conceived the idea of forcing the sale of some literary work magickally. The hotel cleaning woman came to his room as "Choronzon" and dissuaded him from this intention, talking (both of them) in Samadhic language. Since perhaps the incident may be useful to other students, we will try to describe it as faithfully as possible. The Seer had just terminated his magickal rituals to force the sale of literary material when there was a knock at his door. He went to open. It was the cleaning woman, with whom he held frequent polite conversation, who had (or so he felt) a certain sexual attraction to him, and whom he always treated well. Upon his opening the door the woman's eyes widened and she drew back a step, an expression of fear on her face. "May I come in?" she asked. The Seer felt the woman was possessed (she was a Roman Catholic, as practically everybody who lived in that hotel!), but he said yes. The woman stepped in and immediately her face took a disdainful expression which the Seer has seen again in other faces. "It is east to come in," the woman said disdainfully. Then, her face assuming an ironic expression: "I have to sweep the dust around here, before it becomes a pile . . ." She started sweeping the room. "are you having success with your work?" she demanded while sweeping. "I don't know," the Seer answered. "Of course you don't know," the woman said. "Only God can know!" As she said this, her eyes widened in fear again, and she drew back again, expecting (the "demon", of course) to be cursed. But the "attack" moved through the Seer in a way unexpected to the attacking intelligence. Instead of feeling that he was not "God", and therefore should adopt a humble and negative attitude towards "God". he felt that all those people whom he was trying to influence magickally were as much God as he was, and that he was trying to force them. What he wanted must come through universal concord, and not otherwise. But the insight was partial. The truth is that he should have persisted in his attempt (Cf. AL ii 60). The possessed woman dissuaded him and went away. This was not the last time they held Samadhic conversation. This, by the way, happened regularly and with the least likely people during that period.
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. Wine and a strange drug, since I am this Geni (Carcer).