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Marcelo Motta Diary Entry Friday, 28 March 1975
Liber CCXXXI: A PERSONAL RESEARCH
About 1.07 am: Prepare to invoke Geni
of Carcer of
The Geni difficult to contact. Had to climb, or try to climb by any means of which I was capable.
1.35 am. Then it came to me that the Adepts' purpose—the A∴A∴, anyway—is the Birth of H-r-h in the world. The Elixir and magickal work must be used only for this. Then, contrariety (!?). Then, the thought that Black Brethren those who do not do this. (B.B. to us—help to someone else? . . .) Then, doubts because of last vision—secondary works necessary, money necessary. And saw I must unite both ideas. Hard. Invoked B-A-H (of course! Didn't you realize they are united in the Angel?) and finally the solution came: "ever to me" and "without lust of result". That whole verse deals with the problem of doing Magick.[1] Felt great love for Nuit. Then, thought came that it was not necessary to invoke H.G.A. before such a Work—and Seal fell from my head. Put it back on. Necessary to invoke the Angel's help in any work below the Abyss. Obey the letter. Thus the Spirit manifests. And this is a pun and a joke.
1.42 am. Ponder whether to stay longer or not. Remember now—unification with Geni when B-A-H reminded me that everything is a Manifestation from Her (except I, her Lord—this from point of view, of course—again, the letter).
Remember perceiving that Osiris Risen
is contemplating the Light within himself—Khabs in the Khu,
not vice-versa—hence low-case h in himself. (Himself
is the Light—Hadit.) Thus first manifestation of Hadit in
consciousness (one symbol of it)
Subtle movements of the ego, if detected, take to the manifestation of "Black Brotherhood". If detected, conscious—even if you do those things O.K., because conscious. But if unconscious, then consciousness weak or sick. Hence, the "Black Brothers" are mad—from the p.o.v. [point-of-view] of Us? Nay—then there are two kinds of B.B.s. The ones who are B.B.s from our point of view because they are consciously not of us—and the insane ones. Which is the outcast and which the unfit? Am inclined to believe they are so in this order. "Outcast" is related to outermost (LXV—how to overcome all things).
1.52 am. Think of stopping Vision now. Will do so. All needed to be said has been said.
Seal of Geni includes S R Z J which I had not noticed before—quite big—and Shin—the end-purpose of the whole thing.
Shin—the Child. This is the growth of Spirit in mankind—and all external nature ("let down into the Animal Soul of things"). That is what Our Work is. Of course.
Image of Geni internal also suggests Phallus erect with a cross for glans and the Arrow going down. Is there an "i" inside? If so, Hermit again.
Arrow—also —turned down (9). Note: 9 turned down is 6—any significance in this? Cheth 3—Work of Tiphereth? I believe so.
2.05 am. Open all ceremonies with Invocation, or rather, Banishing from AL. Then, Invocation ("I am . . ." etc.). Thought comes that Osiris Risen is position proper (or not improper) to recite this.[2]
1—As far as the Masters—and some Adepts—are concerned, of course. The Outer has less obligations, and the profane none at all, in this sense. They are "freer" than us! Or Us. 2— Here we end this Record, at least at this time. Readers are once more, and for the last time, warned: This was written from the point of view of a Magister Templi manifesting through an Adept with a particular (therefore, restricted) Task, through the instrumentation of a human Scribe of the male sex born at a certain time, partly the product of a certain environment and a certain genetic permutation. Rio de Janeiro, 12 June 1978 e.v.
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with wine and strange drugs. 3 drags.
is the Pentagram. Looking down because this
is the Supernal Arrow. Then, wonder at the way the
Christians blasphemed and corrupted the idea.