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Wednesday, 20 July 1921
THIRD DAY. (Merc) July 20, 1921.
1:17 a.m. P. R. [Pentagram Ritual]—long ceremony especially constructed for the occasion, including Eucharist, now that I have some bread and wine (non-alcoholic).
5:55. "RA".
6:05. Aries showed up uncalled-for to remind me to use Greek Cross in Ritual. ALHIM got into the act too. Note ADNI HIDES NOT Tetragrammaton, but Pentagrammaton, i.e. IHShVH not IHVH alone. P. in Crown in name of R.[a] H.[oor] K.[huit] while T. goes no higher than Chokmah. Yet ADNI must be veiled from profane. First operation is ΓΕ second ΝΕ (55), third CΘ (31) and fourth ΑΙ (11). (Later brilliantly performed). I invoke Him, He evokes R.H.K. (July 25 5:08-1/2 p.m., He has done it. R.H.K. has been in Temple for several hours now; He manifests in Force and Fire (Teth & Shin)) invoking Nuit (LA) and the Crowned and Conquering Child comes forth once more as eleven! The Deed and Silence thereof—hence no explanation. (Note by Scribe—you are well advised not to believe in or try to do yourself in with any of this stuff or you too are liable to go nuts—Ordeal X to some, but to most a bunch of horseshit! Believe me!) Great influx of Magical Force yesterday at Sunset—unusual emphasis in rituals. Smooth flow of current slightly fucked up by B-----'s [Ninette Shumway] coming, but picked-up after.
1:17. ADNI is communicative and shows me who failed to profit by Mars' day and clearly to the end what to do. May I be worthy to partake of Thine IADNAMAD! False ego must be put down. As expected (see Abramelin) way to deal with Elementals and so on granted. Regrouping Images on Altar to direct Worship to Khabs in Khu. Guess I'll call together Spirits of this place and preach to them—what?—Law of Thelema, of course! Always a good thing to agree on both sides as to meaning of an Oath!
12:02. Noon Ador.[ation].
12:04. P. R. with Euch.[arist].
12:40. Consecrate Lemon to TAHUTI and invoke Him.
1:34. Done—8 pieces of skin—21 seeds.
2:54. To find wood for wand—no success.
3:26. Went again—piece to tough properly to cut; nevertheless made wand and accepted it symbolically.
7:06. This is symbol of my imperfect will and must be rejected. (Frazer students will understand this). Done. It lies an unburied corpse on the edge of the Great Sea. The bloody thing is inexcusable—karma or not—QBL could never transform it into anything I'd dare show a Spirit I wished to evoke. I feel like a naughty child about to be chastised justifiably. What difference does it make how I feel? Can't hide it and can't leave it out in the open; certainly no place for it on the Altar. Shame! Burial Rites? or Resurrection? Any resurgence of this would be an Infernal Rite indeed!
7:35. Sunset A!
7:36. Euch.
8:22. "Moon". Midnight "Keph-Ra, P. R. and E."
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