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Meredith Starr Diary Entry Sunday, 26 June 1910
I DEMAND Power; yet I demand it not for itself, but to enable and further progress along The Path.
I will unveil the inscrutable mystery; the treasure-trove shall yield me up its secrets.
1. Prof. Work. Began working out a nativity.
2. Diet. N
3. Hrs Sleep 5.
4. Hrs. Exercise. 1/4 hr. Walk.
5. and 6. Important Events etc. Gilbertson called. Went to church. Turned service into an invocation to Adonai. It was extraordinary. Warren came to see me. 8.30—1.30.
7. Type of Exercise. Alternate nostrils. Sitali Kumbhaka (with Warren)
8. Time 9.17—9.30 about. 11.15 —11.45.
9. Breaks ? ?
10. and 11. Interruptions. — —
12. Results. Pronounced 'glowing sensation'. Sensation of floating in the air. Respiration—semi-trance.
O Man! verily Thou art a divine paradox! As Carlyle says Thou art 'an omnivorous Biped that wears Breaches,'—'a forked radish with a head fantastically curved'. . . . and thou art also 'a Soul, a Spirit, a divine Apparition'.
Warren and I went up to my room and tried all sorts of experiments. First we tried the Mantram [illegible] etc. but had to abandon it as we could not keep serious owing mainly to the fact that W.[arren] did not know the words well. Then we read for some time from ΘΕΛΗΜA. Following this we did the Sitali Kumbhaka. . . . Warren felt preliminary symptoms of an astral journey. Then we prayed for about 20 minutes to Adonai. . . . I succeeded in partly inflaming myself with prayer. . . . I prayed TERRIBLY—with all my heart soul and body—every muscle taut—perspired freely. Was absolutely exhausted afterwards. We also tried looking into each others eye which produces most extraordinary illusions (?). . . . At times W.'s face turned quite black—and his eyes seemed like the eyes of a corpse staring from a leprous skin. A HORROR seized me occasionally while doing this—an undefineable dread—which I fought and overcame.
There is an extraordinary aura in my room. It seems charges chock-full with magnetism.
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