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Meredith Starr Diary Entry Monday, 27 June 1910
From ΘΕΛΗΜA.
"Let the foam of the grape tincture my soul with delight!"
"Intoxicate the inmost, O my forever, not the outermost!"
Unspeakable, O Adonai, is the yearning with which I yearn to thee! "A passion like the passion of the sea" consumes me with unutterable desire. Evoe! Iacche! Evoe!
1. Prof. Work. Read the whole of ΘΕΛΗΜA. It exalts one extraordinarily. Will learn V Chapter. Wrote—(P.T.O.)
2. Diet. N
3. Hrs Sleep
4. Hrs. Exercise.
5. and 6. Important Events etc. Fullers [J.F.C. Fuller] came to tea. Attempt at a short journey w[ith] Neuburg [Victor B. Neuburg]—P.T.O.
7. Type of Exercise. Sitali Kumbhaka
8. Time 11.45 p.m.—12
9. Breaks
10. and 11. Interruptions.
12. Results. Felt tired.
11 A.M.—12 A.M.
There flames in the vastness a star, White with a passionate heat; It maddens my soul from afar Where spirit and senses meet.
It burns with unquenchable fire Enfolding a glowing rose, Whose tremulous petals aspire To cool, immemorial snows.
O Rose with the Heart of Fire! O Rose with the Secret Name! My spirit burns with Desire, And my soul is flushed with flame!
O passionate, crimson Rose! O Rose with the red, red Core! Burn with ineffable throes My spirit for evermore!
Neuburg took me for a astral journey. I distinctly felt I was out of the physical body—but could not see anything. N[euburg] said I was enwrapped in a thick dark cloak—which grew as fast as he tore it off. He said I rose up with him all right, but I could not see—however much I tried to.
Will try again on Wednesday—he will try and get Crowley's assistance.
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