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Jane Wolfe Diary Entry Sunday, 25 July 1920
as narrated by
On the arrival of Jane, Leah Hirsig and Crowley at Cefalu, Jane saw Ninette Shumway and she stopped short and another thought flashed through her brain. She demanded interiorly, "What is she doing here?" Then noticing that Ninette was pregnant, she thought, "O yes,—his child". Ninette seemed familiar to her.
The house was physically filthy and as the day wore on she became aware of a foul miasma enveloping the place that steamed to high heaven. She could not breathe, ·the air choked her. When she got to her room that night she collapsed; psychically she felt she was prostrate. Psychologically she felt she did not even come to a sitting posture until the Fall Equinox when she and Ninette were alone together while Crowley and Leah were in Naples. Ninette made some remarks with her dry humour which made Jane laugh and the oppression began to lift. Precious laughter!
Several years later she discussed this situation with O.P.V., (Norman Mudd) and he explained to her that Crowley was going through the "mystery of filth".
He recited to her the lines in Liber LXV, Chapter I, vv. 44 to 46.
"Thou strivest ever; even in thy yielding thou strivest to yield—and lo! thou yieldest not Go thou unto the outermost places and subdue all things. Subdue thy fear and thy disgust. Then—yield!"
But how could Jane know the necessity of all this at that time? She was untutored and knew nothing of Liber LXV, nor of the ordeals that a Master of the Temple must face. She had only her intuition and her visions as guides and these she sometimes could not interpret correctly. Later, after some years, she regretted that she had to arrive in the middle of these events that she could not understand. At the time, she simply made the best of it. She had come for a certain purpose, and that was to receive some training in yoga and in magick and to discover her True Will. This purpose pulled her through all of the shattering happenings.
It was the custom at the Abbey of Thelema in Cefalu to allow Aspirants three days as a guest and as an aid in general orientation. After that, they were required to work or leave.
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