A.M.

6:15 - 35

ASANA, thunderbolt.

Notice head has a tendency to come forward & downward, but am not conscious when movement takes place.

6:37 - 57

DHARANA, yellow square.

Could not get this & could not bring focusing point at usual place—a long way off. Discovered I was using physical, right elbow, neck & torso contracted. Mosquitos biting almost a relief.

7:00 - 20

HARPOCRATES.

Could not get into this at all.

On hill

Equinox V, Introduction to study of Qabalah.

Did not get far into this when I became sleepy.

Slept till 9:30.

9:35 - 10:03

^[1]

PRANAYAMA.

4-8-8-8. alternating 4-8-8-4 for 10 mins.

4-8-8-4 balance of time. Find I cannot hold breath for 8 counts and continue more than 5 mins. Tried this method of alternating; thinking I might be able to continue longer.

At some time each day I notice a new vigour. Result of a combination of things. Present exercises, physical and mental. May, 1918 I was told: 'Cease your chatter, wait for God.' This referred to a habit of continuously mouthing words though the lips were silent. Am more diligently practicing this, though when I do 'chatter' (and this habit which I thought almost conquered has returned here with a particular vehemence at intervals.

There is not the activity in lower back of head heretofore referred to.

10:37 - 57

ASANA, thunderbolt.

After 15 mins noticed body leaning heavily on right arm. At same time became conscious of throat. Find I can control desire to swallow by focusing on some definite part of body. Now confronted throat as a trial. Succeeded for 3 mins. then throat hurriedly contracted, no swallow. Contraction suggested a relaxation of vigilance.

11:02 - 22

^[2]

DHARANA, yellow square.

Continuous conflict between attempt to visualize and hearing hand drill on rocks. Found a part of me watching for next blow. Emotions tried to enter & tell me this effort was likely to cause injury, at the same time something within shrinking at each blow. Conquered this but could not eliminate sound of drill.

11:20 - 50

HARPOCRATES.

Got babe at times but unable to connect with blue shell.

Find I am contracting muscles in these exercises. Must watch this.

P.M.

PRANAYAMA to beach.

9:37 - 57

ASANA, thunderbolt.

Another fight with sleep.

10:00 - 20

^[3]

DHARANA, yellow square.

Physical poor, work poor, fighting sleep.

Saw white light, about size of a dime, above eye line to my left.

Later saw a light to left & about level with solar plexus. Think this had a suggestion of violet.

10:25 - 45

HARPOCRATES.