Jane Wolfe
Diary Entry
Wednesday, 11 August 1920
A.M. |
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6:05 - 25 |
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ASANA, thunderbolt.
Good physical—no, fought sleep. |
6:27 - 47 |
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DHARANA, yellow square.
Saw yellow square 2, saw dark
square, no square.
Left hand in pain, left leg
spasm once, swallowed once. Sleepy. |
6:52 - 7:12 |
[1] |
HARPOCRATES.
Better than preceding but could
not achieve any degree of stillness. Vizualised babe
on lotus, at times blue shell. Again got alien
color. Quick flash of J.W. in pongee colored silk
robe with peculiar pattern of salmon pink around
borders. Saw large wagon in country standing still.
Leah [Leah
Hirsig] doing something but did not see what. |
8:10 - 35 |
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Equinox V, Qabalah. |
8:37 - 9:08 |
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PRANAYAMA, 4-8-8-4.
Took up Qabalah again. Am
getting hold of something and find it interesting.
Do not know when I put book
down but must have had ¾ hour sleep. |
10:40 - 11:02 |
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ASANA, thunderbolt.
Right great toe moved. This
strange as I cannot consciously move this toe
without moving others. Or did another move without
my noting it?
Am I in a groove? Again came
sleepiness though nothing violent. |
11:05 - 25 |
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DHARANA, yellow square.
Watched any desire for sleep.
Thin now tense sleepiness of Aug 9 started up wrong
method, i.e pushing the mind. Ten minutes before I
could focus then discovered rigidity.
Entire body affected. Left leg
stiff, knee & ankle 'set', conscious of back, right
buttock paining more or less, left one numb. |
11:30 - 45 |
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HARPOCRATES.
(?) |
11:58 |
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Just waked from a 'cat
nap'—felt the need. |
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P.M. |
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PRANAYAMA to beach 4-8-8-4. |
9:37 - 57 |
[2] |
DHARANA, yellow square.
Not sleepy. Leveled mind by
saying: 'Yellow square is a part of the God-Body'. I
then could look calmly, dispassionately,
impersonally. |
9:57 - 10:12 |
[3] |
ASANA, thunderbolt.
A miscalculation. Watched left
leg. This posture cause of pain in left hip which
interferes when playing 'Foot-ball Fives'? Entire
left leg protesting. |
10:20 - 40 |
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HARPOCRATES.
Accomplished something in the
beginning—mind skipping about thereafter. Caught
myself speculating as to whether insect on body was
fly, flea or ant. |
Comment(s) by Aleister
Crowley
1—Possibly
good.
2—Good method.
3—Naturally.
4—All equally
Maya & Tat!
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