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A.M. |
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Wakeful during night, but this
not due to restless mind. Rather to physical. All
muscles sore & painful—from yesterday's swim? Head
aching slightly. |
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6:15 - 35 |
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ASANA, thunderbolt.
Body stupid, mind started
journeying. Body aching when finished. |
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6:35 - 53 |
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DHARANA, yellow square.
Something accomplished. |
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6:55 - 7:17 |
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HARPOCRATES.
Rested me wonderfully this
morning. |
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8:12 - 30 |
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PRANAYAMA.
4-8-8-4. Body inclined to
rigidity when starting. When walking must wear shoe
that gives support to right instep. Relaxed arches &
middle toe of right foot collapse without support.
The physical affects the
mental. Here am I with a weakened, protesting body,
head in bad condition, and where even Laotze proves
inadequate. What does the Hindu ascetic accomplish
by inflicting agonizing pain upon himself?
'Nothing more elastic and
yielding than water, preeminent to dissolve things
rigid and resistant.'
'God moves along the line of
least resistance.'
I cannot study, I cannot read
this morning. So I lie quiet and still, letting flow
into my consciousness whatever of Life and Beauty
these hills, the birds, the passing winds may
afford. Should I do aught else? At present I cannot
think so.
----In darkness, no life in me. |
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10:52 - 11:12 |
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ASANA, thunderbolt.
Got still here. |
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11:14 - 34 |
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DHARANA, yellow square.
Accomplished something,
possibly because my first temptation to omit. Each
minute seemed ten. Swallowed three times, once when
fly was walking around my nose. |
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11:34 - 45 |
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HARPOCRATES.
Weary, weary. |
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P.M. |
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No Pranayama to beach, tried
but could not continue.
Two particular swims, which
heretofore I felt might prove beyond my powers. |
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10:28 - 48 |
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ASANA, thunderbolt.
Score 1. I conquered a desire
to swallow focusing on throat. Horribly sleepy. |
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10:48 - 11:08 |
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DHARANA, yellow square.
Battling sleep from start to
finish. Managed to get a few yellow squares—this
time they sat on a low, broad, dark pedestal.
Find the stilling of the mind
restful and shall surely feel its tonic and
invigorating effects later, and somewhere deep
within I sense the peace and rest of slipping over
the edge. For one second of this rest! |
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11:15 - 35 |
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HARPOCRATES.
Babe and blue shell only.
Have a feeling of well being
and poise to-night, more in tune. Due to talk of
A.C. this evening? |