12:20

Impelled to altar. Here got impression “sin”, viciousness are servants—to be commanded.

1:45

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Attempt work: wish to learn about book. Amidst confusion find myself back in room from which I got the book. See smaller one suspended between me and bookcase. Cannot decide between the larger one with me and the smaller one, whose cover suggests bitterness. (Christian conscience? The first was given me, therefore I should look no further. Why did I go back?)

^[2]

Impelled to altar. Impressed while there that alcohol fumes from my brain feed something in a pitch-dark cave, where waters lap greasily. Can se nothing but know that slimy things are in that water.

(I took one glass and a quarter of wine, and am quite conscious of the fact.)

2:50

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Myself seated, as a colossal person—almost an image—feminine but dominant note, power. This for a time. Then appears circular enclosure, Egyptian, open to the sky; tiled floor, alternating black and white (white, greyish with age?), with large red circle in the centre, point of each tile pointed outwards. To my left a large stone lion, resting on a base almost as high as a man.

To my left and in the rear, farther away, a doorway into a room, high-ceilinged, white. After a time a very, very small figure, in black robe, suggesting A.C. stands in doorway.

10:00

Did I get too close to the slimy things in the greasy water? All afternoon and evening am in a “mood”.

Went into Fives in this mood, scrapped; continued, and through Pentagram, and it is still on me.

I and I only, can cure these things.