Jane Wolfe Diary Entry

Friday, 24 December 1920

 

     

 

P.M.

 

In Abbey all night—felt good on arising; short nap in afternoon.

 

A little typing, read Duel Deferred and Noble Nobody—Fives—some mail.

 

 

 

Opium Record.

 

 

6:00

 

3 pills

Sensed leaping flame; did not see it.

6:30

 

3 pills

6:44

 

Ditto.

Thought: “The Capsule”, scenario—crooked for the sake of villainy. Why not for a reason?[1]

7:00

 

Ditto
A quick flash of something suggesting star-strewn sky.

7:45

 

Ditto

8:15

 

Ditto

8:30

 

Ditto

 

Saw poetry—verses of four and six lines—occasionally a single line.

A large hand holding a pill.

8:45

 

Ditto

8:55

 

Head of a youth, lying on left side of face, round eyes turned upward, regarding me. Very still.

9:10

 

Pool covered with lily pads. Near me a round, flattish terra-cotta coloured bowl, highly polished, empty, bowl about 15’ diameter, 3’ high. To left, though not connected with it, a tripod. Made of iron, slender legs.

9:25

 

A black beetle, small of body, legs of some length—moved sidewise, travelling downward directly in front of me. Red some place about its head. This incoherence of description due to having fallen asleep be-fore taking in all details.

9:30

 

Too sleepy—something with small stones—almost pebbles.

10:00

 

Called on Fee Wah for assistance in ascertaining mystic name for my-self. Wrote his symbol three times, then visualized same, then called.

 

On elevation similar to terrace in front of Abbey; a fine, beautiful foot-way of stone, cement and carefully-formed coping, leading downward to a small city lying, whitish, at the foot of the hill. Over the whole scene, which included palm trees, a soft yet brilliant sunshine, very clear.

 

To my left a low-lying building, into which I intended going, when I realized Shummie [Ninette Shumway] was to my right, slightly in the rear. I did not see her—I just knew she was there. Her unspoken thought that the trip down to the town would be very hard for her physically, turned me away from the door, and I started toward the foot-path. I felt she had womb trouble.

 

This faded, and I heard twice “Mathonet”—“Mathonit”? Then I argued: “No, not ‘Math’, but Manothet.

 

A.C.’s interpretation follows.

Manothith or Matonith = 516 410 + 106 = 516

= The female Fish

Thom = 65

ON = Nu 56

TMAT = 50 Jonah’s whale

= female Fish

= Gates of Binah

 

Maton = 106 = Nun

Mat 50 Gates of Binah – (Adamah of Chesed, watery earth - Jonah’s whale, the sea Athm= closed, shut up.

On = Nu Thoma = unclean

Ith = feminine termination

Matonith is the Lady of the Hidden Understanding of Nuith.

 

Now 516 = 6 x 86 The (Sun) manifestation in radiant harmony of the Female Elements of Nature, brooded upon and impregnated by the Breath of the Holy Spirit, or of Nuith, whose letter is He.

 

516 = The radiant manifestation of Nature, inspired by the Breath or Holy Spirit of Our Lady Nuith.

516 is the abstract idea of this.

Matonith, the concrete correspondence, the Woman who incarnated this idea.

 

 

Comment(s) by Aleister Crowley

1—There are "reasons" for everything, of course; but the average man is a crook; so why emphasize explanations?

 

 

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