Jane Wolfe Diary Entry

Wednesday, 2 March 1921

 

     

 

A.M.

 

 

7:45

 

Past four nights waked at 2, lying awake till after 4; last night dozing between 2 & 3, peasants keeping me from sleep 6-7, sleep then somewhat.

 

Last night I was “cast down”—a dream, and I attempted no control! After two years without a slip. This waked me at 2.

 

In various naps after 4 I witnessed crowds love-making (my second night like this), myself coming in for a prolonged kiss in front of folks, which embarrassed me hugely.

 

At another time it fell to me, for some reason to speak to a blond of about 16, who was making love to a dark man—to call her attention to two side of love, one benefiting, the other wasting. She promptly began making love to me. I put her aside, when she fell upon a dark-haired girl to my right.

 

Some place in here A.C.’s paint brushes, all white, and a practical joke on a fat man, who thereby paid a large bill not his to pay.

10:00-20

 

Asana.

Good. Stood on circle of Temple with nervous organism only, I should say. These practises are steadying me.

10:20-38

 

Dharana.

Down to brass tacks. Finally landed on spot always indulging in exhaustive rhythm.

10:40-11

 

Harpocrates.

Like acting: more art required to do nothing than something.

13’ Pranayama.

 

 

 

P.M.

 

 

1:45

 

Heavens! A degree of fitness in my head—better than at any time since May, 1918.

2:00-3:30

 

E String.

3:40-4:10

 

Vision.

 

Too indistinct to decipher. Some confusion about a black snake. Also conscious of brilliant green of or on a being passing me. Finally got golden-yellow serpent, with rich seal-brown circles on back, standing on its tail. Think head puff adder type.

4:15-30

 

Pranayama.

6:30

 

Shummie [Ninette Shumway] & I both to grief over Bysshe & milk!

9:05-25

 

Asana.

9:25-44

 

Dharana.

Hammering away.

9:45-10:05

 

Harpocrates.

Tired but stuck it through, getting & losing constantly.

Body will not Pranayama.

 

 

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