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Attempt Halahel, but
concentrate instead. This humming centre is where I
false images arise, watched yesterday. That the part
I have thought dissociated? And that caused Fee Wah
to say “You let others use your brain?” Is this
reason for present lack of vision?
This spot busily occupied
elsewhere while balance is trying to visualize.
Think this spot has some
connection with sex, the weakest part of my armour,
according to Fee Wah.
Go to Cefalu with Lea [Leah Hirsig]
to inspect paints. Return 10:20. Start work 10:35.
Tired from hill climb, etc., lie down and work with
now famous centre. For 20’ I listen with effort to
foot-steps, ticking of watch, voices—and find this
spot does not readily lend itself to change; that
had I the use of this only, the overtones of voice
would be lost. That is, I take in not
Think I am on track of a big
change. This the leak, this the chattering, the
picture-forming, the idle and false imaging centre;
floating, detached, from my conscious will. |