Jane Wolfe Diary Entry

Saturday, 26 March 1921

 

     

 

A.M.

 

Last night I was shown the way, that on which to work, the result of proper work. Perfect repose in every part, no strain, a feeling of ease. I have been using up energy, instead of lack of it, equilibrating be cessation, and am at the end of things. It may have been right for the time.

 

I now make the experiment, 10:05-25, and succeed. Myself a lotus on a motionless pool. The central part of me coming to life—Being, as distinguished from Mind?

 

4 1/2’ Pranayama.

 

 

 

P.M.

 

Am finding out these days why me lethargy, my lack of strength. I have been divorced from Being, I think; cut off from the vitalizing, main current.

 

15’ Concentration in Asana.

 

20’ Pranayama, 10-20

Good, as will had to be active to keep going at all.

 

At intervals during day, Karma scenario.

6:00

 

I feel as though come to a full stop. A having finished and a waiting for the backward swing of the pendulum.

8:50-9:10

 

Asana

Working easily and well.

9:10-20

 

Dharana

Easy and good.

In both of these the steady balancing as of delicately adjusted instruments.

9:20-40

 

Harpocrates.

Nothing. I knew at 9:20 I was finished, but sat through Harpocrates. Does this do any good?

 

10’ Pranayama, 10:20

Better than heaps of my 20’ periods.

 

 

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