The load I have been carrying these two or three weeks (the last few days not so heavily) has dropped from me, and I feel that the telling Lea [Leah Hirsig] of the foregoing dream and our subsequent conversation affirmed my Will by a material act of Will; and that this has eased me. I wonder it is so? It was not altogether easy to say the Man in the dream was Beast, but having gone that far I plunged still farther. I told her I went to Cairo for my Initiation, and when she said: “I wonder if you are mentioned in the Book of the Law?”, I answered “Many times.” But showed weakness by adding, “Time, of course, will have to prove that.” But by this willed action I entered the arena. To date my entire Cefalu career has been “Love under will”. I now realize that my taking my proper chair at the Table must be an act of will. I must claim it; demand it, if so it be; knock down and walk over the supine body of any who might oppose my presence—should there be any such. To-day I sounded my first bugle. Also I can now understand Beast’s declaring himself the O.H.O. [Outer Head of the Order].