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Jane Wolfe Diary Entry Monday, 4 August 1924
— — —After a talk with O.P.V. [Norman Mudd]. I have some kind of a suffragette complex; but it is not along the usual lines of "intellect", "creative", etc. But perhaps because I mention these they are the very ones.
Asa the adorant, Isa the sufferer; ·the suffering principally on Woman no matter what Man may say to the contrary. For this, of course I attack the Gods, not Man.
I don't like Woman treated contemptuously by Man, that much I do know. (Principally, I believe, because I feel it belittles him. )
"The more self-realization I achieve - the more I realize the god within myself, the more intolerable I consider such action by Man; because so far I am unable to do aught else than look out on a dead level of equality - not mentally, intellectually, etc., but by reason of my own intrinsic worth, my own powers and capacities - of which I am conscious but cannot use as yet.
I could bawl when a Man belittles himself.
I have never been able to look on Beast except as an equal. I am prepared to believe him the greatest living man; I am an ignoramus—nevertheless, his equal.
As for O.P.V., I think he too has a complex. He is such a spinster in many ways - little fussinesses; he is pernickety and finicky.
He has intellectual pride. Meticulously calls everybody "Esq", though in England it refers only to the gentry, does it not? He feels lack of social position, and therefore falls back on his intellect.
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