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Jane Wolfe Diary Entry Thursday, 7 August 1924
About
midnight an odd persistent seepage of blood from left
nostril which persisted all night. The left side of my head
and the nerves down into the left shoulder are affected—a
feeling of soreness. I 'have not been feeling well for two
or three days, but thought it was from hunger. (Insufficient
food now for a week.)
I had a feeling last night at 11:30 that something had come to an end—or smashed up—or was it a new plan had been adopted? or a new current running. Or—what? (P.S. Yes: Leah ill. I believe there is more to this than will be thought of at present.)
V.L. [Adam Murray] is in a bad way, from strain and lack of food, and O.P.V. [Norman Mudd] is at times well-nigh impossible. He is full of picayune fussiness at any time—when excited the fussiness of an old hen with her chicks—and these are accentuated (I suppose) at present; or I am in a state to be more affected by then. And he gets excited! I feel much more solidly established than he; I get irritated, yes; but he gets excited in addition to irritated. Also he seems to be as set in many ways as V.L. is "systematic", the difference being that V.L . is vain of his system, and O.P.V. is totally unconscious, I believe, of his small set habits. (I wonder if it is possible to be a teacher in institutions for any considerable period and not become domineering and old-maidish? Class-room teaching year after year seems to develop these traits.) I wonder, too, if he likes his job of "Boss" just a little, little bit?
I have felt for some time that I would not take part in any legal action against the Sunday Express. (Of course, this may be a secret hope that I will get out of the job, which one part of me does not relish. There is equally another side which would like to stretch its muscles fully by undertaking it.) 8 or 9 months before it can be tried! !
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