Jane Wolfe Diary Entry

Monday, 23 November 1942

A subtle change has taken place in me! And I thought nothing of moment had come from it, except to get myself somewhat organized. I recognized it between sleeping and waking this morning. Frederic [Frederic Mellinger] noticed it last night.

I returned to the house last night to find Wilfred [Wilfred Talbot Smith] distraught. He heard Burlingame [Ray Burlingame] had joined the army—this after telling him last Wednesday that he would join us here. Now, did he lie to Wilfred, or did he lie to his boss when he told him he was leaving to join up?

I go down to breakfast this morning and everything seems at sixes and sevens—there is no cohesion—nothing connected—very disturbing.

P.M. Another version of Burlingame. Reported he got his step-daughter pregnant—though how they know is a problem as she was said to be going with another man all the time. But, the worst of it is, that he is said to have used the occult and the Order as a means of approach, and threat over the heads of the Long Beach women, to gain his ends. Telling the step-daughter—it is said—that she would have to yield to Jack [Jack Parsons] or Wilfred if either one wanted her or suffer occult repercussions. This must be why the Long Beach group have cut themselves off from us for some time.

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