Miscellaneous Unpublished Poetry
Contents — 7 Hokku — All Hail Ye Glaciers Splendid — Bed, The — Diabetes — Elegy — End, The — Fragment of an Ode on British Agriculture — God Save Our Gracious George — Gods Took Counsel With the Lords of Fate, The — Have You Got an Invitation to the Marriage of the Lamb? — I Want to Write a Poem Proclaiming the Confession of Every Star-Soul — I Went to Call on Edward Clodd — I Went to Call on William Blake — If You Rupture Your Peritoneum — Loving Ballad of John Antony Long, The — Musings on a Wet Sunday Afternoon — My Back is Saddled with the Scum — Recruits — Red Lips of the Octopus, The — Song — To Pass Through the Pale Streets — Why it Would Tickle Me to Death — You are so Live with Laughter
Masterful Autumn! Yes, put coal on the scuttle. Life is alluring.
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A View from Battersea Park Gwendolen Otter Red leaves drop on the flagstones Moons of abortion.
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Pigtails Ogle my darling. Piccadilly in August! God and the daisies.
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Jane Cheron Opium keeps me. Ever throned in the snake, O Slumber Satanic.
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The Benefits of Science. A Hymn to Prometheus. Twopence to Holborn. Four towers loom on the river Faraday. Kaukas.
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Buddhism I am a petal Darkling, lost on the river. Being-illusion
(Saying I am proves I am only a detached derelict in the darkness of ignorance whose essential quality is the illusion of existence.)
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Ida Nelidoff Vigils of Vice. Mad Flower. Pierced of amber, Portal of ruby.
A sailor's kiss is branded on my throat, Where his teeth infamous bit hard the skin At that strong moment when the eager note Of passion [illegible] and splashes and grows thin And throbs and crashes in one fearful sound Where all life stops and all desire dies When my sick body in his love lies drowned, And he lies corpse-wise on me, nor will rise, Though my breath shudders, and my soul be dead His mark is sweet, and I grow amorous Willing again to have the satyr head Roam o'er my flesh with teeth lascivious. To feel my bowels bloated with the flood Of boiling [illegible] love-drops and exultant blood.
All hail ye glaciers splendid That touch the azure sky Across you we have wended With joyous hearts and high The snow is tinged with dawning The air is keen and pure Away to seek the morning Upon the loftiest tower!
Below the silent passes The chamois browse in peace The distant roar of masses And city clamours cease 'Tis here we leave the sadness Of cruel earth behind This is the land of gladness Of every noble mind.
This is the summit regal Of boldly sculptured form 'Tis here th' audacious eagle Soars high to stem the storm O heavenly frozen fountains! O Nature vastly grand Come sing among the mountains The song of Freedom's land.
Look what we luckless English are reduced to This really isn't what we have been used to! Lord Woolton callously condemns the nation To rot far short of absolute starvation. My old profession—'twas by grief unclouded!— Of "Living skeleton" is overcrowded. Only 5 soups, no more than 7 fishes, And barely 14 game and poultry dishes. Oysters, smoked salmon, vegetables, sweets And savouries don't count among the "eats": They are "subsidiary". The grim spectre Of hunger stalks the Strand. Of course, the nectar Of Dionysus, in unlimited Supplies, does something to assuage the dread Pangs. And we'll use the remnant of our wits, Go on to Claridge, the Hyde Park, the Ritz, The Berkeley, Basque, Frascati, Oddenino's, The Cafe Royal—once the home of beanos!— And square the meal—so far as Law allows— At l'Escargot and Lyons' Corner House. Pity the luckless English! game as bantams, Even as we fade to unsubstantial phantoms!
Beneath this broidered canopy, Between these gilded cedar posts Carven with idle imagery, Faint flit the memories of ghosts Who played their parts therein, and passed— Blown on Fate's Boreal blast
Here blindly blundered into birth Headforemost that ambitious ape Who would be master of the earth:— From sea to sea he squandered rape And murder with unsated lust
Here Night beheld the nuptial revel Of great King Carlos and his bride, Deirdre, the daughter of the Devil Who made adultery her pride And bore a bastard to a groom To reign in her lord's room
Here whispered sleek Sir Gut the treason Within his master's eager ear That wrecked three kingdoms for a season And filled a continent with fear; And—at the last—strangled their hope Within the hangman's rope
Here the one statesman that could save His country, died in mid career; And here the surgeons healed a knave Who lived to wreck a hemisphere. This refuge sacred to repose Brought forth—what wealth of woes.
The camp, the mart, the council-hall: Not there most weightily is wrought The work of Fate; in secret, small Shrines dedicate to Silence, thought Thrusts in its dagger, deftly deep To the soul of Love of Sleep.
Tremble no more to fix thy gaze Upon the gallows and the gun, These are bit witness to the ways Whereby the doom decreed is done. Fear the still pool where Fate is bred, Hell's heart and brain—the Bed.
(6 July 1944)
1 A fireside pipe and a dear old crony— Here's to a bloody good drunk! The rest is fiddlesticks, blah, boloney, Bull-shit, and the bunk!
2 Up the bottom of Tommy or Tony Here goes the tinkety-tunk. The rest is fiddlesticks, blah, boloney, Bull-shit, and the bunk!
3 Pick up your rifle and saddle your pony Show 'em the class of your spunk. The rest is fiddlesticks, blah, boloney, Bull-shit, and the bunk!
(circa 1914)
[not published in the English Review]
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We are not of the blood of Belshazzar; we are not of the kindred of Cain We snuff the war in our nostrils; we take no delight in the slain. The thrill of the fife and the trumpet leaves us still as cold and calm As the peasant by vine and by olive, the fellah by cactus and palm Yet to all things on earth, saith the Preacher, are rules where exceptions abound Shall to this rule be found an exception? To this an exception be found? Ah no! in the court as the cottage, the castle as hovel and hut One king rules without an exception and that is the particle BUT, Whirled high on the banner of Shakespeare, shrilled swift by the wind on the cliff Is the charter of Albion's freedom, the masterful particle IF By the Jingo that liveth and reigneth the hole ineffable Jing The world and its ends [illegible], that sustaineth our prophet our priest and our king I swear it, that if—which we do not—we do, then the protasis ends And apodosis thunders in answer its challenge to foes and to friends That the lee of the fleet is to lanward, the blocks of the Nordenfeldts draw The Dreadnoughts are [illegible] for levin, they hold the wide ocean in pawn And the tars that are nearly teetotal the tars that are Christian young men With their cutlasses clenched in their molars, roar back to the foeman "What then?" And were this not enough we thank Heaven that sent us the gift of the Jew That apart from the ships and the sailors we have billions of bullion too.
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We would not fight: dear God, we would not fight Knower of hearts, Thou knowest it is true We might be beaten; and—it is not right. We would not fight.
Nay, let none twit us for a coward crew For by the living Jingo as lips leer Vulgarian that inane expletives strew If, if we do
If! if we do! why then, we have the ships We have the men—great hearts, stout limbs, true-blue!— And—mark and tremble, ere we come to grips!— The money too.
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Crikey! Gorblimey! Why, Dutchy, you don't think we'd ask fur a scrap? Naow! We doan warnt ter, I tells yer, shall I put yer 'ed under the tap? We doan warnt ter. Got that? Why, awright then, thise ere's the straight stuff, if we do Why we'll blow ole Berlin up wiv Deadnoughts an woant mike a fuss of it too. We've got men, why my bruvver's a sailor, 'e broke 'is ma's fice for a lawk, An' the coppers 'ad pinched im fur Griffiths, but we girt 'im away in the dark; An Paw give 'im 'is lawst 'awf a suffering, it didn't get 'ome to 'im, stritr How 'e fairly was soft on the bleeder, till 'e saw Ma's ole medal that night. That's the breed, Dutchy, bulldog fur courage, an gentle as four ale wiv gin. Do you get it, you blighter from 'Amburg? Jest chew on it! Let it soak in! An' that aint the end—you can go back to yer Kaiser and tell the ole bloke Wiv my love that he's mats in the carrot if 'e thinks the ole country's gone broke. We've the oof, Dutvhy. Ninepence fur fourpence all mide in two tears, it's a fact It's only the "Mile's" game to kid yer a-sayin we 'ated the hact!
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We are twenty million Englishmen We do not want to fight. We want to go to bed at ten And not sit up all night.
We do not want to fight. Oh no! But if we do, what then? Foul fall the false and felon foe Of us (the Englishmen)
We have the ships. The ships are ours. Are the ships ours? They are. Ships. Ours. We have them. Malice cowers. Our ships? Yes. Heaven's ajar!
We have the men. Wir haben Mench! Tenemos hombres. Nous Avons les hommes. Be warned, you French! (We have the money too).
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Whatever we may think of war, For instance "Is it wrong or right?" "Was Wheeler wise to quit Cawnpore?" "Should women voters wade in gore?" "Had Nelson wholly lost his sight "Would this small island still be tight?" "Can soldiers live on rape and groundsel?" "Is the Curragh the Privy Council?" On these and all such themes men use To hold the most divergent views. On this one point we all unite Listen! We do not want to fight.
Impracticable, doctrinaire, Bohemian, critic-from-arm-chair, Philosopher, John=head-in-air, With such and many other terms Of just abuse we hail the worms Who, their backs stubborn to the rod, False to their country and their God, Incapable of faith or oath, Immoral, imbecile, or both, Insist on asking—asking is! "But brothers, if it were not thus?"
The answer, if one must be made To their long-winded, mad trade To their interminable rant Their nauseous, un-English cant, Is by referring them, in short, To blue-books, Hansards, where report Is made by the authorities Whose business or whose duty is To meet the fanciful, fond, faery, Fantastic, addled, astral, aery, Suggestion (supra para 2) Aforesaid. They will find it true That should, by what the men who know Know, knowing that they know it, so Unthinkable, an usurpature Both of God's laws and those of Nature, We do, then—why? we have the ships., (No toys be sure for Margate trips!) We have the men, (a grand old type Of Briton, Bible, beer, and pipe, Hard-working sometimes, sometimes leisurely) And we've the money in the Treasury.
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Wrong? Is it wrong? what matters, since wrong may be one with right? (It is Nietzsche the hedge row that shatters) The fact is we don't want to fight. But then if we did, why by Jingo, white-sailed are our ships as the flowers And bluebird our flag and flamingo; the Bible says Ocean is ours. Our men—we have men—men that man them; like the oaks in the parks are our men Their chests—no yard measure may span them, and one is worth certainly ten Of Frenchmen or Germans; moreover, the God of our sires let us thank, We roll in financial clover—the money is safe in the bank.
Unnumbered
There was a man of London Town This bloke acquired a great renown 'Twas not for preaching snotty sermons But from shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shitting on the Germans.
The very day the bloody war Broke out, that bold old bugger swore I've fought the Frizzies and the Burmans Now I'll go shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shitting on the Germans.
His lonely fiancée would linger A-wagging a consoling finger. The other girls explained "Oh her man's Gone shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shitting on the Germans.
In spite of bayonet and an' shell He give them bloody bastards hell He left his tail up like a merman's And went shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shitting on the Germans.
One day he missed his call at roll The sergeant said " 'Is 'ero soul Is gone to Heaven as luck determines Still shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shit — shitting on the Germans.
To find flies greedy over your urine Argues: a specialist should now be seen. He will raise eyes and wag his head and snort Over your last laboratory report.
"Sugar for you is just as bad as meat is; You are a sufferer from diabetes, A deadly and insidious disease. There is no hope of cure. Three guineas please".
It's quite a good deal for a little money; And, to some people, might appear as funny. But to the folk who neither drink nor smoke, And yet have got to croak, it seems no joke.
"Can soldiers live on rape and groundsel?" "Is the Curragh the Privy Council?" On these and all such themes men use To hold the most divergent views. On this point we all unite Listen! We do not want to fight.
Did you speak truly, when you whispered me Your fierce hysteric love for my boy limbs? A sigh from my [illegible] mouth steals tenderly, A little mist of love my sight bedims For that the faint fear comes to shake my faith (line erased) Lest the delightful words thy dear tongue saith Be as deceiving arrow-heads that kill I am so weak with the desire of thee That I shall faint when our lips meet at last If but thy lips were [illegible] in kissing me Surely the bitterness of death is past. Love! I am all thine own and love thine art But to betray me is to break my heart.
There are of God in search who went Towards, poor souls, the Orient, And have prolonged their western dramas With all the evil smelling lamas In all the thinkable ashramas; Or lost much time, to the indiscreet, In learning Pali and Sanskrit; Or watching priests, with ropes who tackle. What brought them home save the debacle Of their poor hopes? But I for one, deaf to the call Of astral ropes and gods and all, Though of no potency mercurian Have come back with a true if small God o the celestial durian.
(written in a country farmyard Bell Inn, Aston, Clinton, Bucks—1 May 1944)
Here rests beneath this hospitable spot A youth to flats and flatties not unknown. The Plymouth Brethren gave it to him hot; Trinity, Cambridge, claimed him for her own.
At chess a minor master, Hoylake set His handicap at—2. Love drove him crazy; Three thousand women used to call him "pet", In other gardens daffodil or daisy?
He climbed a lot of mountains in his time. He stalked the tiger, bear and elephant. He wrote a stack of poems, some sublime Some not. Plays, essays, pictures, tales—my aunt!
He had the gift of laughing at himself. Most affably he talked and walked with God. And now the silly bastard's on the shelf, We've buried him beneath another sod.
(circa 1898 or earlier)
The end of everything. The veil of night Is not so deep I cannot comprehend. I see before me yawn—a ghastly sight— The End.
Love long ago deserted me to wend His way with younger men. Life spreads a blight Over me now. I have not now one friend.
There is no hope for me; no gleam of light To my black path will any comfort lend— Yet will I meet with smiling face, upright The End.
Fragment of an Ode on British Agriculture.
Ye stalwart sons of England's soil Be not so sentimental, sad and soppy. Waste not on wheat and cats your tedious toil, Grow hashish, coca, and the opium poppy.
1 God save our gracious George God save our noble George, God save our George Send him all glorious Long to rule over us, Still moratorious God save Lloyd George.
2 O Lloyd our George, devise Cash for each kite that flies! Launch paper boats! Snorting like stallions, Issue battalions— Pound notes in galleons And ten bob notes!
3 Star in the night, sole hope Of Europe's horoscope We saw thee come Angel athwart the war Peace from the Chancellor Safety from foes, o mor -atorium.
The Gods Took Counsel With the Lords of Fate (circa September 1923)
The Gods took counsel with the Lords of Fate "How shall a Master of Mankind dispart His substance from its shadow, by our Art Conjoined the grossness of his earth-born state?" "Let then the little war against the great That they may purge him of his mortal part And throne his spirit in the human heart Above those envies, incommensurate".
It crossed my mind to draw my dripping scourge Across a Consul's withers—Demiurge And donkey—but the Muse cries: "Nay my Crowley! The mean malignant baseness of the brute Serves to remind your honour to dispute Each inch of ground that gentle blood holds holy.
(circa 1916)
Oh cabbage-heads soaked in rum! On the blink, on the bum! It's right, tight, put out the light! Putty faces! Oh grimaces At this time of night! Let me draw, paint, sculp Your faces of pulp! Oh gulp! Put out the light! Diabolically, divinely tight!
What do you know about that? I'm a cat! The world's my rat! It all goes under my hat. Thin and fat, On my mat, I'll paint You all like a saint, Until I faint. Ain't That quaint? Gr-r-r-r! Gr-r-r-r-r-r-r! Once more for luck! (Love a duck!) Gr-r-r-r-r-r-r-r-r-r-r!
1. Get up this morning? You're right in your head? Yes, you all think I were much better dead. This is the day for my Sunday in bed.
Chorus Senile decay! All the folk say I am the victim of senile decay.
2. See the pen shake as I scribble this verse! How my voice creaks—I am trying to curse! Toilett' Intime? I'm in need of a nurse.
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Senile decay! All the folk say I am the victim of senile decay.
3. When I would listen, how little is heard! When I would talk, I'm at loss for a word. When I would read, how the letters are blurred!
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Senile decay! All the folk say I am the victim of senile decay.
4. I have some work to do—never you fret Now for a drink! It's a pretty safe bet There's a bite left in the old lion yet.
Chorus Senile decay? Rubbish I say! Courage is master of senile decay.
Have You Got an Invitation to the Marriage of the Lamb?
I lament that I cannot write common Christian hymns. The field has been covered so well by the serious writer, However
1 Have you got an invitation to the Marriage of the Lamb? Have you found the free salvation of the Firstborn of I AM? 'As He saved you from damnation as He did your dad and Man? —It's you He's worried over
2 Were you slated for Election before Eternity? Are you under the protection of the Wings of the Most High? Will you join the resurrection and join Jesus in the sky? —It's you He's worried over.
3 Like a ram caught in the thicket, by Jehovah's stratagem Jesus died to save the wicked in His wondrous love for them, Have you bought a one-way ticket to the New Jerusalem —It's you He's worried over.
4 Do you know of any other who can wash you white as snow? Do you go the way that mother always wanted you to go? If you think it out, my brother, you will have to answer "NO". —It's you He's worried over.
5 Do you realise that Satan has a Jack on which to roast Your immortal soul, a prey tantalising all his host. He will get you if you wait and blaspheme the Holy Ghost —It's you He's worried over.
6 There is weeping, there is wailing, there is gnashing of the teeth, There are red-hot spikes impaling the damned souls from down beneath. Brother join us who are sailing on toward the victor's wreath —It's you He's worried over.
7 O my brother, it would please us if you came to God to-night, You have sinned and it would please us if we knew you were all right. O my brother, come to Jesus and get Him to make you white —It's you He's worried over.
8 O if only you repented of your black iniquities If you only came with bent head before Jesus on your knees, Satan would be circumvented, God would heal Sin's leprousies —It's you He's worried over.
9 He would save you and not damn, he would call you wheat, not chaff, To the Marriage of the Lamb He would bid you come and laugh; You would be one of the family and eat the Fatted Calf —It's you He's worried over.
10 When God sounds the gong for supper wash your Sins off in the Fount Of the Blood His Son gave up, erasing sins on Calvary's Mount Jesus counters with an uppercut and Satan takes the count —It's you He's worried over.
11 The first round was fought in Eden, Adam K.O. through the ropes, God thought Jesus might succeed in doing better than them Popes, Nigger Satan's skills and speed an' Science outed our White Hopes —It's you He's worried over.
He who seduced me first I could forget. I hardly loved him but desired to taste A new strong sin. My sorrow does not fret That sore. But thou, whose sudden arms embraced My shrinking body, and who brought a blush Into my cheeks, and turned my veins to fire, Thou, who didst whelm me with the eager rush Of the enormous floods of thy desire, Thine are the kisses that devour me yet, Thine the high heaven whose loss is death to me, Thine all the barbed arrows of regret, Thine in whose arms I yearn to be In my deep heart thy name is writ alone, Men shall decipher—when they split the stone.
I can't abide A blushing bride. She sobbed and cried (She called it 'clied') And nearly died, But then she dried Her tears; she eyed Me, to confide Her love for fried (She called it 'flied') Eggs; then she guyed Her Alpine guide And bade him glide To hell and hide His stoney-eyed Features that lied Like carbamide Or cyanide. She liked the Pied Piper, and plied Her arts, and pried With pouting pride His heart, to ride By his dear side In easy slide At high spring tide. In vain he tried, With his she vied The Great Divide Reached far and wide Her peroxide Hair, sunny-eyes As lead azide And that is why Deuce take the bride!
I am Nothing, so for me Nothing is a Verity. That Nothing comes of Nothing may be true, But, only when you Nothing do, can aught begin From your own Being. It is the endless Din Of doing and in doing, as we spin In Space, leads Men to say they Nothing fear. They do fear "Nothing"— true—, For Nothing less to them is Death, But you in whom my spirit moves can sink Into the Nothingness from which they shrink. And be reborn as lightly as a Breath.
(circa December 1922)
I love my love with an L because she's lustful And I lent her a lot of lire, because I'm trustful. I took her out to luncheon at Lafayette's, Lasagne, Lentil soup, and lobster and lettuce And lamb, and lemon ice and liches and Limburger Because she looked such a lank lengthy slim burgher And I looked for liquor all through the liberal list; I Bought her Liebfraumilch and Lachryma Christi, Lafitte and London Gin and Chateau Leoville Because I wanted to keep her out of the way of ill. And I gave her a lump of lard, because she was lean And a lewd little lyric I learnt in a latrine Because she likes to listen to Lohengrin. And then I let Lucille loose, making her clothes, some Lingerie too, because her linen was loathsome, She made them lilac, lavender, looped and laced Because her legs would wander up her waist. And I gave her larkspur, laburnum, lobelia, lily To wear in her hair because she looked so silly, And many a like device I did as well To prove how much I love my love with an L.
"With an L?" She said with rudeness; "Let L stand first for lewdness, Then for lechery, lust and after For lascivious leers and laughter. Love me with the lance that pushes Proudly through my bristly bushes With the Leaping of the Lion That in vain one keeps an eye on With the lordliness that begs No one's leave to part my legs, With the tight and wrinkled lump That keeps banging on rump. Love me with the L of looking For the aftermath of cooking With a liking for the wine Sold in this old shop of mine, And the steaming Plat du Jour That my kitchen's toils procure.
Love me with the L of longing Still unsated by the thronging Tireless triumphs of our joy, With the first love of a boy As with that last love that hallows The huge horror of the gallows.
Love me with the L of Lordship Over language, that thy wardship Of my worship from fatality Win us poet's immortality.
Love me with the L of lashing Lust to know such tortured thrashing Writhing madness that Time May not match in filth and crime Our excesses. And also love me With the L of Light above me, Shining from your stainless soul That had always God for goal, Gained him be the dissolution Of the illusion of pollution.
Love me with the L of lips That I bite until blood drips Down my thirsty throat, at grips Next between my harlot hips While your tongue obscenely slips Into sleekest sin, or dips Darklier where sits Death, and whips Lust with his twisted finger-tips To perverse pleasures that eclipse Fertility's frail fellow hips. But also with such lips as swore To track down Truth for evermore The poisonous pulp, the bitter rind, The rotten core, the seeds designed To multiply their evil kind! Love me with the L the Lips red0curled That smiled their challenge to the world And sang so stern, so smooth, so strong, So subtle so sublime a song, That Hell made holiday, for Pan To have taken on the flesh of Man, Love me with Lips more pure than Blake, For God and Africans that ache With lips more soft and curled than Keats Where foulness cools and beauty bleats With lips more passionate than Shelley That suck all night a whore's raw belly, With lips that, tempting Shakespeare's kiss, Boast sodomy and syphilis, Lips that drip white with sailor's spunk Across the smeared shit of his punk, Yet by her soul her cunt outstunk!
With those lips love me, soaked in slime Let them more subtle and sublime In eloquence most high and holy, Majestic and yet melancholy, And if their inspiration falter, Find grace free-flowing at mine altar.
Love me with L for Licking Lewd Lea's Loose Lower Longitude For Lapping Lea's Leaks, and Loving To suck all holes too small for shoving. Oh, Love me with an L, your Lea Because I lay my Leucorrhoea Loose like a lady, a young river To irrigate your lazy liver. Oh Love me with an L for Lending My Life my Love my unpretending And modest mouth, my mild melodious Dim-purpled arsehole, my commodious Old cunt, my thumbs and fingers, toes and Nipples and navel, Ears and nose and All else I have to get you hot on. What do you fancy your next stunt'll be, Where your prick is you bet my cunt'll be. Oh love your love with one more L, boy, And yet she only breathes to fashion Form for the pleasures of your passion. Or fuck my cunt, stuff my bum, Oh coke me with a cock and come. Oh piss and shit with me, and vomit And make a witches dinner from it, As your whore's carrion may squirt. Oh see my cunt ooze out obscene Whites, with the moon-wrought red, and green Gat gonorrhoea, xanthous meres of Urine, and orange cakes and smears of Shit over this my bum bruised azure And mauve and indigo, to craze your Prick with the might of an insane Bo- anerges, rogering a rainbow. Oh frig my arse. Oh tongue my twat Oh chew my menses, sniff my snot, Oh grease my God with my great gob. Oh make our joy a juicy job. We won't be bound by fancy's fetters; We'll teach young L to know his betters, And love with all the other letters.
I love my Lea with an A Because her arse goes all the way. I love her with a B, because A better Bottom never was. I love her with a C, for never Was a Cunt so Crazy or so Clever. I love her with a D, why Mayn't I Dote on her Dung Divinely Dainty? I love her with an E; my pen trails So far less Eager than her Entrails. I love her with an F; they race Her Frigging Fingers, her Fucked Face. I love her with a G for Gripping Her Guts to save my prick from slipping. I love her with an H; I relish Her Hole because its Heat is Hellish. I love her with an I; her mission Is Intestinal Intuition. I love her with a J; I am A Judge of Jelly Juice and Jam. I love her with an L, for weeks I lie and Lick her where she Leaks. I love her with an M; I fuck Her Mouth, her Menses and her Muck. I love her with an N; who thought I Could be so Nasty or so Naughty? I love her with an O; refusing No Offal from her Ovaries Oozing. I love her with a P, my bliss is To be her Piss Pot when she Pisses. I love her with a Q; I swim In the Quintessence of her Quim. I love her with an R; I've gotten A red raw randy rump, rich ripe and rotten. I love her with an S; she's It With Spunk, Slime, Slobber, Snot and Shit. I love her with a T; she's got My Tool Tight Tucked in her Tart's Twat. I love her with a U; she hands me An Uterus that understands me. I love her with a V; no swine are As Velvet Vile as her Vagina. I love her with a W; My Whore, my Wife, my Will to Woo. I love my Lea with an X The unknown quantity of Sex. I love her with a Y; Love dawns When her Young Yellow Yeast-yard Yawns. I love her with a Z; I'll pack her Zig-zags, by Zeua, with my big Zachar. I wish instead of twenty-six Letters to love her, I had pricks.
I Want to Write a Poem Proclaiming the Confession of Every Star-Soul (circa July 1922)
Nuith! whose Body is Space And the infinite Stars thereof, I set the flame of my face To seek Thy laughter and love: I race to Thine eager embrace Nuith! Thy Star! I surrender My soul to Thy splendour
Hadit! abiding intense In every Shrine, I am now And here nor Spirit nor sense But wholly and utterly Thou By Thy virile violence, Hadit, by the whirling wonder That brake my being asunder!
Ra-Hoor-Khuit! I adore Thee Thou crowned, Thou conquering Child Nuith to Hadit that bore Thee Of Force and Fire in the wild World, Death dancing before Thee Ra-Hoor-Khuit, Life leaping after With Lust and with Laughter
Aiwaz! Angel of Awe Thy sword plunges sheer to the hilt In the world's heart, flashed Thy Law Terrible; Do what thou wilt. I leaped up free as I saw, Aiwaz, Thy Light and heard The Truth, Thy Word.
Hail to the Great Wild Beast, The man that mastered the hour; Hail to him, passionate priest, Who uttered that Word of power, Calling the vultures to feast The carcase of Christ to devour! Thou Great Wild Beast, Io Paean! Thou Word made flesh of the Aeon.
Babalon leering and swaying Drunkenly slack on the saddle, His strumpet of scarlet, braying Thy blasphemies, naked astraddle Thy Beast, sing Thou of the slaying, Babalon, of the Saints, and the spilth In Thy cup, of folly and filth
Whores of the Beast, all hail. Hail, from the first, his wife Rose the sot, to the stale Strumpet that brought to life His son, to Leah whose Grail, Whores of the Beast, brims with thicker With lewder and bloodier liquor
Parzival, hail! From the cave Of the harlot hypocrisy-plastered Hilarion, whose gluttony gave Her bed to The Beast, did the bastard Come forth the Pure Fool. Thou shalt save, Parzival, the whole world from its blindness, By simplicity courage and kindness
Ye God-men, ye stars of Nuith, In your orbits that revel and roll, The Law of Thelema is sweet And strong to the swing of the soul. With the Word of the Beast do I greet God-men, he hath freed of fatality, Aware what ye are in reality.
This is not quite the hymn I meant. I want a short lifting epigrammatic line with simple rimes.
Nuith! Hadith! Ra-Hoor-Khuit! I hail Thee, Queen Of Space unseen And the infinite Stars of it. I hail Thee, heart Of all that art. Thou secret source Of every force.
There is no spot Where thou art not, Thou, unextended, In bliss art blended, With Her One Space In every place At every time, That Love sublime With every act Creates a fact. Each separate stress Serves Truth to express, Some element Of its extent As some new star All things that are Themselves, that know Themselves, forth shew One facet of The daimond Love, Express their norm— How infinite form Its bodiless Blank nothingness May find, and fit With Infinite And Formless Being, Each act agreeing To its projection In imperfection
Ra-Hoor-Khuit With huge hard beat That most intense Vast vivid sense And spirit of The hoarded Love Of Space and Seed, Devised the deed That brought Thee forth Thou ravener of Wrath And Vengeance! Wild And Wanton Child Delighting Thee In cruelty And Lust, Thou Son Of all All and None, Thou sole, Thou dire Dread God-head Fire And Force. Thou World Of Horror, hurled Through Heaven in ravage. Spew spouts of savage Spume of lust— Thy nature must. Art Thou then God? This period Of earth This aeon? Cannon Thy paean, Murder Thy pleasure, Madness the measure Of virtue, want Thy nourishment? Thy strange High Priest, The Great Wild Beast, Lion and Snake, As he is, may make Mirth of his dupes Before he swoops To gulp us raw. "Love is the law, Love under will". He smiles and still Some slaver drips From his lewd lips— I care not; Thou Art Master now, Child Conquering And Crowned. our King, Our Ruler still Whether we will Or no. Yea more I choose to adore This God of Force And Fire; my course Is His, unjust I shall not swerve His soul to serve, For in my lust Of sin I trust Truth. Mine own heart Is art and part Of Nature; she Can never be (Though doubt may dream) In Truth's supreme Analysis In aught amiss. I rise to greet Ra-Hoor-Khuit
Aiwaz! I heard Thy wonder word Upon the earth Whose name is worth Will; and thereunder Love and that thunder Of speech that seals The lightning deed That sows the seed Of Life and Breath In the soil of Death; And that most wast The first and last All-comprehending, Without ending Or beginning Of the curse, The Universe— Wiser, wider Than its Spider.
I will NOT go on with this damned thing; and I am more certain than ever that cocaine is no good under any conditions soever, unless in very small doses and very few of them. This 'prolonging the agony' simply transforms me into a dull prosy prolix word-cobbler.
I Went to Call on Edward Clodd (circa November 1923)
I went to call on Edward Clodd And found him busy with a rod Making strict measurements of God
Observing him with lots and lots Of interest I saw Charles Watts Who said "This Mary Queen of Scots"
Was just a crazy Catholic Besides, I simply cannot stick He swank; "the whole thing makes me sick"
"Mary"! The Reverend McCabe (Joseph) woke angry and outgrabe Against the Virgin and the Babe
He said "Such births are not legit- imate: I liked it not one bit Even when I was a Jesuit
"Oh Mene Mene Teckel Upharsin. Things of this sort make Hell As credible as old Ernst Haeckel,
"philogenous or saprophytic, It matters little; every critic Agrees that risk of syphilitic
"Infection must invariably Follow misconduct!" "Very ably— As I nigh almost say McCably—
"You put it" answered Edward Clodd "But don't distract me with these odd Ideas—I'm busy mapping God".
The purr of fat E.S.P. Haynes Thrilled the assembly: "Watts complains Of Mary Queen of Scots's reigns Too frequent incident's courses' Of violence the illegal forces She used instead of neat divorces.
"I could have fixed her up poor kid Finely—(exactly as I did For Crowley) for say fifty quid".
I must admit that Haynes can hustle; But let us hope that all this fuss'll Be over soon" remarked Earl Russell.
"O hell. You're simply wasting breath" (said Haynes) "that show at Nazareth
I Went to Call on William Blake (circa November 1923)
I went to call on William Blake, And found him scrapping with Isaiah; Ezekial busy cutting cake, And tea was poured by Obadiah. Moses was eating buttered toast, And Paul was punishing the crumpets. They talked about the Holy Ghost, And how to act towards our dumb pets. Blake offered me the caviar, And asked me what I thought of Browning. He gave me an immense cigar And showed me how to save the drowning. Such hospitality as his I wish I met more often in this Unsociable wild galaxy's Worst planet—what a labyrinth is Life at its best. I'd go on strike If only for example's sake If it were not for people like My good friend Mr. William Blake.
I went to tea with Algernon Charles Swinburne, who was drinking brandy Out of a bucket: so was John Ruskin, and sucking sugar candy. Rossetti used a long stout straw To soak up whisky by the gallon; While Herbert Spenser sang the Law Of Evolution with Grant Allen As a duet with Sullivan Had just composed that day at lunch. The tree of them were black and tan With boozing Maraschino Punch My host made haste to open for me A bottle of his best ole Pernod I drank it off—its virtues bore me Into the heart of their Inferno By Atalanta, I observed I'd rather like to know (as I'm a sinner) If this is tea we should be nerved To have a jolly time at dinner.
De Qunicey wired me to drop in To lunch with Edgar Allen Poe. It would have been a shame and sin To meet such kindness with a no. They hoped to stir the drowsy God in 'em, By filling themselves with laudanum. The lunch qua lunch was not perhaps A gastronomical success For all there was to eat was scraps Of yesterday's neglected mess. But oh the jars of opium, And Oh the company—yum! yum! Coleridge was sprawling on a mat Fighting the bamboo to a finish, While Baudelaire, in high silk hat And boots constructed to diminish The size of his flat feet was assish Enough to swallow pounds of hashish. De Maupassant produced a stench Abominably vile with ether; And Wilkie Collins brought a wench Who thought all alcohol was beneath her. So all through lunch to my surprize They shot more morphine in their thighs. Between the courses Nietzsche took Pinch after pinch of heroin So regular it made him look Less like a man than a machine. I reckoned that he might put away At least a kilogramme a day. I found myself most warmly greeted By Poe, who told me that my brain Would find its genius completed By several ounces of cocaine; And like a veritable Prince, he Borrowed the bottle from de Quincey. They introduced me to their friends Like Francis Thomson, Ernest Dowson, Who bolted pills of divers blends Of dope—we nearly set the house on Fire, for the curry William Sharpe ate Was hot enough to burn the carper. Others again wolfed belladonna, Chewed mescal buttons, smoked stramonium: I murmured to Augustus John a Remark about the Pandemonium. He hadn't had so wild a day Since leaving the Y.M.C.A.
I, who am dying for thy kiss, must go Where the crowd thickens in the noisy street Walk in the [illegible] air, who used to know Warmth, calm, and love twixt thy beloved feet. Now, for thy glory, is some old man's shame, For thy smooth mouth, some bearded monster's throat. Now for thy white warm figure the ill fame Of a shrunk body, rank as any stoat. Is there an end, a hope, a chance to live Beyond these agonies, to thee to turn And revel in the fire [illegible] thy love shall give Or—would your arms a harlot's body spurn? Ah! If your lips my lips their love denied, I should not have strength left for suicide.
If You Rupture Your Peritoneum (circa 1913)
If you rupture your peritoneum, You're tied all your life to a truss, So let us all chant a Te Deum If that has not happened to us
If you run up against gonococcus You learn what a catheter means, Thank God if he spares us the jocus Of serving us that with our greens.
If Anopheles feed on your forehead You suffer malarial pangs Pray Providence spare you the horrid Effect of those feminine fangs.
If you get cacoethes scribbendi It's dead you had better be— Kneel down and thank Allah Effendi You're not a poor poet like me!
(circa March 1923)
Life in itself is nothing worth To protoplast or Demiurge The heavens are futile as the earth Their choir but orchestrates its dirge The utmost bitterness is mirth
Those moments only when the mind Moves beyond manifested things To mysteries all undefined Yet sure bear wisdom on their wings, Are beautiful as they are blind.
I dared nor live unless to draw Some water from the wilderness For them that thirst: and lo I saw Failure the sister of success— All's level in the scale of Law.
I dare not die until by sure Signal and seal I know my Will Wrought from the lyric overture To the best epic chord. Fulfil My Fortune. Therefore I endure.
My sleeping suit is broidered silk Softer than even my smooth skin My little feet are white as milk My arms are open as for sin. Rich furs of Asia, warm, beloved Of little sparks and noises, drape The floor with silent languor moved To [illegible] shape.
In silk and fur and fur and silk And all the ivory of my skin I listen for the drowsy purr That is your signal to come in. I want to feel your breath disturb The warm sweet air about my throat, To feel your whole live body curb My passion till our faces float In the warm nectar of a kiss— I would your clasp would tighten still, Minute by minute of pure bliss, Hour by hour until it kill.
I would I died in your embrace With all my body bright and bare Filling the ardour of your face With kisses mantling everywhere, My whole sweet body blushing shame, My hair still stinging your desire, My eager lips suffused with flame My mouth athirst with salt sweet fire.
Abased, defiled, and desecrated, Ravished, abused, I love to lie With all my senses violate— Only the ravisher hard by.
Bruised by your kisses, bleeding yet Where your white teeth devoured my flesh— Lover, that agony forget And bring your mouth to mine afresh.
Drown with thy murderous love my life, Consume my flesh, destroy my soul. Only—'your love', 'your boy', 'your wife', Still let thy tongue's lithe music roll.
Only, my head must turn to thine, So thou mayst drink my dying breath, Then flood me with envenomed wine And let thy passion be—my death.
(completed 13 February 1945)
Poor Isabella had a lot of woes to weep, they said. She hadn't got a basil pot to park her lover's head, She put it in a biscuit tin and looking down the highway, Said Saints preserve the next with nerve to come a wooing my way!
He came, the fool; his simple rule was: When you see it, snatch it! I boldly dare to venture where the chicken got the hatchet. Her brothers may refuse O.K. to my projected programme. Though I fill up our friendship's cup in memory of Grogram!
It all came out, no nose could doubt that stench was not the biscuit. Her boy they trussed and neatly thrust a bodkin through his brisket. The moral is: in other's business nose refrain to stick in, Lest man repeat that tragic feat—the hatchet and the chicken!
(circa June 1922)
Let me arise—and Freedom! Lurk! Withdraw! Upon them! I invoke the Lord of Speech. Cast on this windswept spit of sand to bleach A starfish husk. I am the Star who saw August and Arcane Truth, embattled Awe, Whose might anointed me and armed to teach This One Word, this None other Word to preach: Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
(another version)
Lurk! Withdraw! Upon them! I invoke the Lord of Speech Cast on this windswept spit of sand to bleach A starfish husk, I am the Star that saw August and Arcane Truth embattled Awe, Whose might anointed me and armed to teach This One Word, this None other Word to preach Do what thou wilt shall be the whole of the Law.
There is not marked on any chart The holy Isle of Avalon; No matter from what shore you start, It lies beyond the horizon.
All year its golden apples glow; All year its blossoms shed perfume; Its mountains gleam with constant snow And flowers adorn its every coombe.
To make the Port of Avalon Nor chart nor compass aught avail. It lies beyond the setting sun, My skiff must have not car nor sail.
In Avalon's continual spring Birds blossom and trees give delight, Slow pulses of pure pleasure swing The soul in trances infinite.
Along a coast of sheer black ice Cut off a man's height I must go; And yet the clear green testifies To some enchantment far below,
That emanates a warm perfume, Soft, silken as a woman's breast; Life rises in immortal bloom And sinks to its eternal rest.
Here, where nor moon nor stars by night Nor sun by day perturb the peace Of this ecstatic orb of Light —Began not, as it shall not cease.
Shipman! Accept the lawful coin! Amngn! Eheieh! Allah! or To On That pays my forfeit to rejoin Mine ancestors in Avalon!
Out of the night forth flashed a star—mine own! Now seventy light years nearer as I urge Constant mine heart through the abyss unknown Its glory my sole guide while spaces surge About me. Seventy light years! As I near That gate of light that men call death, its cold Pale gleam begins to pulse, a throbbing sphere, Systole and diastole of eager gold, New life immortal, warmth of passion bleed Till night's black velvet burns to viruson. Hark! It is Thy voice, Thy word, the secret seed Of rapture that admonishes the dark. Swift! By necessity must righteous drawn, Hermes, authentic augur of the dawn!
Love me or leave me, death is always kind Kiss me or kill me, he will solace me My lips are desolate; my desires are blind My whole life languishes for love of thee. Give me thy love, I will not keep it long, Lend me thy lips, it is but for an hour, I shall dissolve, as sinks the hollow song, I shall fade silently, as fades a flower. Thou shalt endure. I dare not hope for this, To be absorbed in thy dear life at last, To mingle death and wedlock in thy kiss To feel thy soul to my poor soul cling fast Still, whether love or scorn my lips excite Death will receive me and destroy me quite.
The Loving Ballad of John Antony Long
1 I explained the tenets of Anglo-catholicism to a boy in the black out, 'Is name was John Antony Long. An' as I was hauling the slack out, 'E uttered 'is sorrerful song: "Oh mother, dear mother, you said it, "You shu-ly foresaw what would come. "With every good reason to dread it, "I've got a man's heart in my breast." An' the chorus of Ai-yer raid Wardens Came 'umming like 'arps in the ai-yer; "This is not at all in accordance "With what father told us was fair."
2 The Bishop of London, appealed to, Said: "Popery's under my ban. "Whatever induced you to yield to "The arguments of this heretical old man?" Saying: "Antony, darlint, I want ye, "I promise I'll not make ye imperil your salvation. "Dear Antony, don't be a conchie, "But 'elp us in winning the war." An' the chorus of Ai-yer Raid Wardens, They mide a most joy-er-ful noise: "Our Wellingtons, 'Avelocks, an' Gordons "All started by attending to the spiritual welfare of boys."
3 They gyve me command of the Nyve-aye: I syled up the Spree to Berlin. "Stick it out!" was the signal I gyve! I 'Eard Antony's sly Lead me to the true light Singing "Mother, dear mother, I'm doing "In my humbler way just what you did before. "It may be me maw-orral ruing: "At least I am winning the war." An' the chorus of Ai-yer Raid Wardens Broke out inter jubilant song: "That everything's fine in the gawden's "The work of John Antony Long."
(circa Tunis, August 1923)
Come my darling, let us dance To the moon that beckons us To dissolve our soul in trance Heedless of the hideous Heat and hate of Sirius— Shun his hateful brilliance.
Let us dance beneath the palm Moving in the moonlight, frond Wooing frond, above the calm Of the Ocean diamond Sparkling to the sky beyond The enchantment of our psalm.
Let us dance, my mirror of Perfect passion won to peace, Let us dance my treasure trove, On the marble terraces Carven in pallid embroideries For the vestal veil of Love.
Heaven awakes to encompass us, Hell awakes its jubilance In our hearts mysterious Marriage of the azure expanse, With the scarlet brilliance Of the Moon with Sirius.
Velvet sways our lissome limbs, Languid lapped by sky and sea, Soul through sense and spirit swims Through the pregnant porphyry, Dome of lapis-lazuli—:— Heart of silence, hush our hymns.
Come my darling; let us dance Through the golden galaxies Rhythmic swell of circumstance Beaming passions argosies: Ecstasy entwined with ease, Terrene joy transcending trance.
Thou my scarlet concubine Draining heart's blood to the less To empurple those divine Lips with living luxuries Life importunate to appease Drought insatiable of wine.
Tunis in the tremendous trance Rests from day's incestuous Traffic with the radiance Of her Sire— and over us Gleams the intoxicating glance Of the Moon and Sirius.
Take the ardour of my impearled Essence that my shoulders seek To intensify the curled Candour of the eyes oblique, Eyes that see the seraphic sleek Lust bewitch the wanton world.
Come my love, my dove, and pour From thy cup the serpent wine Brimmed and breathless-secret store Of my crimson concubine Surfeit spirit in the shrine Devil— Goddess— Virgin— Whore
Afric sands ensorcel us, Afric seas and skies enhance Velvet, lewd and luminous Night surveys our soul askance. Come my love and let us dance To the Moon and Sirius.
Musings on a Wet Sunday Afternoon.
A lady whose name was Cordelia Was reading the Essays of Elia "This bores me" she groans "I'll turn to 'Tom Jones' "By Fielding, or—yes?—his 'Amelia';
"With Dadian Prince of Mingrelia, Play chess? Or see Hamlet? Ophelia "Has not, you'll admit "Her fair share of 'IT' "No more than had Mother Cornelia—
"Cornelia, dam of the Gracchi; "Men looked on her charm with a slack eye. "She failed when she went "To pick up the rent— "No wonder they gave her a black eye!"
Desunt cetera—thank God!
My Back is Saddled with the Scum.
My back is saddled with the scum Of Bermondsey, my house become A foul insanitary slum For sloppy shit and beery bum Spit on my carpet, call my 'chum' —Is this the fine millenium They promised us, that fatal hour When we put Socialists in power?
(circa 1916)
Equipment War engulphs nation after nation, Its tide is very far from ebbing. Now what about that regulation About the blancoing of webbing?
Alas if only that were all! A spiteful demon keeps on hissing "And those big noises in Whitehall That seem to have a button missing".
For further details should you care (Bring piss and sweat and spunk and shit) Consult that chapter in La Terre (It makes me sick to think of it)
For Zola's glory, if you can Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh The poor old wife of such a man O Holy Spirit pity her.
Salt makes a great improvement in an egg; Not so phlebitis in the human leg. So swollen and so inelastic is it, That the physician on his earliest visit, Wraps it in gauzes, puts it in a splint, And gives the patient no uncertain hint: First "Quies cuius est suprema lex" Second "Prepare for passing in your checks" For if the blood clot to your lung you jerk The rest is merely undertaker's work. Kneel by your bedsides, children, in your nighties, And pray that God may keep you from phlebitis.
The Poetry Society. St. Vitus St. Borborygus, aid! The thin screams fell And rose like spasms in some hothouse hell Peopled by scraggier harpies than Cocytus. Dull dirty décolletés dilettante! I sickened to the soul; above the babble Of that cacophonous misshapen rabble Rose like a cliff the awful form of Dante.
Colossally contemptuous and weary The iron eyes of Dante Aligheri Burn into mine; their razor lightnings carve My capon soul. "What dost thou here?" they said: "Art thou not worthy to be dead? Canst thou not go into the street and starve?"
Let the fire die down, and push the drawers of the desk in! "I will arise and go now, and go to" Boleskine. There I leapt with the torrent, a boy, and grappled the crag, Laughed with the sun, with the wind and the rain, with the eagle, the stag.
Now that the world is grimmer I go there forty years after Back to my bens and glens, with steadier leaping and laughter. We have lost two million dead, blind fools for our four years' pain; Thanks to our spineless chiefs, the Hun is at it again. Now I must back to the North, back to my bracken and heather, Back to the stubborn moors and the savage joy of the weather, Brandish the Fiery Cross ablaze on the jut of the crag Rally the sons of the clans to the fame of the flame of the flag. March, lads, march at dawn! March through noon to sundown! The Front is across the Rhine; come, lads, let us be stirring Pepper into the soup of Hitler and Goebbles and Goering.
I've raked out the study fire; I've pushed the drawers of the desk in. "I will arise and go now"—back to bloody Boleskine.
The red lips of the octopus Are more than myriad stars of night. The great beast writhes in fiercer form than thirty stallions amorous I would they clung to me and stung. I would they quenched me with delight.
They reek with poison of the sea Scarlet and hot and langorous My skin drinks in their slaver warm, my sweats his wrapt embrace excite The heavy sea rolls languidly o'er the ensanguined kiss of us. We strain and strive, we die for love. We linger in the lusty fight We agonize; our clutch becomes more cruel and more murderous. My passion splashes out at last. Ah! with what ecstasy I bite The red lips of the octopus.
Mohammed Ali ibu Messaoud Trusted to Allah for his daily food. And so with favour was the saint anointed That never once had he been disappointed.
One day this pious person wished to shave His head, laid by his turban; but a knave Spied opportunity to mischief, scanned (As secret as a serpent in the sand)
The prospect, snatched it slyly from behind—Off to the desert like the desert wind; And when the good man would resume his prayer, Behold! his turban was no longer there.
In rushed Abdullah, Hassan, and Hoseyn. "Yes, there he goes, the bastard of a swine! "Hasten and catch him!" But the good man went With melancholy eyes and sad intent
Unto the burying-ground without the wall And there he sate, stern and funereal, His spirit shrouded from the lamps of sense, A moment of earnest patience.
"Sir!" a disciple dared at length to say: "That wicked person took another way." "Wide is the desert," quoth the saintly seer: "But this is certain, that he must come here."
I would clothe truth With glory unimagined. I would weave youth New garlands for his head
On sorrow's brow Let my songs light glad torches. For temples now Let old gods have new porches.
When slumber comes And Night lies on my soul, And the death drums Their forlorn music roll,
Then shall man's heart Be glad of my poor singing, The birds of art Fresh flowers shall be bringing
On my low bier Strew blooms of clematis, Love, let one tear Melt in thy last smooth kiss.
(circa September 1923)
Immune to troublous Thought and Innocent Of aught beyond the impulse of the hour I grew and throve a tall and slender flower, Reaching its forehead to the firmament Will pallid hues and faint elusive scent, Unconscious of the portent of the power That slept within my soul till sun and shower Should wake the Ineluctable Event. I never scrutinised the lure of living, I knew not of reluctance of thanksgiving, I sought no secret of the truth of things; Nor Who, nor What, I meant by Self; nor How Nor Why I came to be; that I was now Who was not Then awoke no questionings.
A tall slim flower, unconscious of its needs Or Nature; taking Sunlight, Air and Rain And Earth for granted; neither fearing pain Nor craving pleasure, seeking not to read The Riddle of the Future. All my Greed Was formless faith in life; the silent sane Instinct to trust, without the wish to explain Facts as I found them, felt them and agreed. I bent my blossom blithely to the breeze; My roots took hold on secret treasuries; My petals vowed their velvet to the sun; My leaves absorbed the wind and drank the dew; I never cared to know and never knew The Word that willed these duties to be done Beauty, to Nature wholly natural,
In Nature I beheld; in life there flowed It's Heart's Blood, Love whose energy bestowed On Thought a tide of trembling sensual And Magick-music; eager to the call I sprang; my spirit leapt from its abode Of silence, song spontaneous overflowed, Echoing that joy with laughter lyrical. Intense sang my Soul out to the stars, Meaningless measures coursing in their cars Of rapture through the circus of the night, Attuned to art by instinct to express Truth not yet crystallised in consciousness, And deluge me with and drown me in delight.
The Jesuit who loves to play Upon his congregation Scourges the vices of his day, A pleasing titillation: Delight (he murmurs in their minds) To think that your absurd behinds Are worthy of the darkest kinds And deepest of damnation.
Semester of spinach appalls the catamaran's bedside Manna—quails Upanishads super-conscious Id With its narcissist buttonhook cry-baby Omega While Mary—Mari—Marie saucepans eggs from hunting-birds' song, but No Malthusian indefatigable what-not Toying unpleasantly squeamish hams in Cauliflower Rhineland mortician not Not no never nimbly evacuating Eliza In rapture as into Israfelchocolate Lightning at Lyons' Corner House. Woof! She straddles lucidity lapping froth of Fumbling old chickenpox gallimaufry. Click. Gangrene in of from Metheglin. Mortuaries moaning at St. Giles-in-the-Crab-Salad.
This is not so much my impressions of that sunrise, but an attempt to express what the man is trying to convey to the native.
HE: When your body white and slender is entwined about mine own, And your lips so soft and tender find on mind their throbbing home; When I crush your quivering flesh, dear, with a force and with a fire As if death could but refresh, dear, and our bodies never tire; Swift as lightning runs the vintage of the Sun throughout our veins, Poured between us without stintage, cooling us like Summer rains, As it flows from me to you, dear, surging back from you once more, Recombined as 'me and you', dear, sealed within life's hidden store: How it cleaves the twain asunder—reunites them from above. Who shall say our lives are two, dear, since we've met and made them one? Or recall the pearly dew, dear, once it's gone to greet the Sun?
SHE: Though the Moon must rise and set, love, wax and wane thrice three times more, I shall feel without regret, love, new life knocking at that door; And that door shall gladly open—as it did to let you in— Once again, as love's own token, you shall greet the Sun in "Him".
To Pass Through the Pale Streets
To pass through the pale streets with carmined lips. To bear the harlot's taunt, the passer's scorn To woe and be refused, to touch the lips Of some old sinner's fingers, to be worn Hour after hour by hope deferred; at last To find a man, decrepit, palsied, sere, To bargain, to embrace, to hold him fast, To kiss the toothless gums, the eyelids blear, To wake forgotten vices, to abase My young live body to his weary lust, His filthiness to wallow on my face— God, send thy fire and strike me into dust. Hell has no anguish such as this Ah God! to think that I was born a man!
Osiris by Ossiosis and mouldiewerp Pottering above under along overtime Undersigned und er undertaker undies Very very oh mother all antistrophe Like Heil Hitler on the Underwood in The Underground pattering, pittering, pottering Puttering Comrade Roosevelt with Peke And Jake unfettered moonlight if winter Comes Judas developing scarletina rash Reckless oh boy! Old school tie eschewing international Rule Brittania metal laisses-faire Forward Quakers! Up up up down yes Up Sir Roger de Coverley and at 'em Crowning crescent expertise on on B44 The charwoman charge in Half Moon Street And and deficit defunct meteors Madge Plymouth Hoe and atrocities Summons Stalag G 23 At the first blush of radium Boot polish
Why It Would Tickle Me to Death
"You know me—that I never boast— But I would simply love to roast That rotten egg the Holy Ghost"
"I never could approach the limen" Sneered Robert Blatchford sourly) "why men Make all this fuss about a Hymen
"It's made precisely like a pie-crust— I'd sooner let my push-bike rust Than let my good old marlinspike rust".
The Virgin lies in Bethlehem (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) The root of David shoots a stem (O Holy Spirit pity her)
She lies alone amid the kine (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) The straw is fragrant as with wine (O Holy Spirit pity her)
Mine host protects an honest roof (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) His spouse sniffs loud and holds aloof (O Holy Spirit pity her)
The angel has not come again (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) Why did God deal her out such pain? (O Holy Spirit pity her)
Her love-hours held the Holy Ghost (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) Where is he now she needs him most? (O Holy Spirit pity her)
Joseph drinks deep within the inn (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) She is half-hearted by her kin (O Holy Spirit pity her)
She had such joy awhile ago (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) Why should her love have wrought this woe? (O Holy Spirit pity her)
The agony increases fast (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) Each moment—will it be her last? (O Holy Spirit pity her)
There are three kings upon the road (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) She has thrice cursed the name of God (O Holy Spirit pity her)
Her bitter anguish hath sufficed (Bring gold and frankincense and myrrh) She is delivered of the Christ (The angels come to worship her)
(15 January 1916)
You are so live with laughter, Jeanne [Jeanne Foster] the joyous, I sometimes fear our lives may lie apart. I would there were some dragon to destroy us, I want to know you suffer with my smart; I want you sometimes sobbing on my heart.
I lean on you so wholly that I feel I need you also to cling close to me, Your velvet clothe, yet stiffen, by my steel, Your life affirmed by my eternity. I want my force to set your failure free.
You gave me love, you gave me life, you gave me All gifts to God, the flower of all your years. You made yourself a sacrament to save me, But still one shadow haunts his perished peers: Give me the greatest gift of all—your tears!
Your love is light and little is my gain Your gold can never quench this cruel fire, Your lust assuages not this sick sad pain. My lips are paler for your strong desire. What are my kisses but a wanton's lips What are my struggles but a slave's old shame Leave me—I cannot love you—He has whips To torture me with an enduring flame. Have I then sunk so low? My lips are hired, I paint my cheeks to lure a man—to death. I sell my body gaudily attired Tricked out; you suck a harlot's breath. To think, a man should kiss me for a price— Did Jesus dream of such a sacrifice?
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