A LOST SPIRIT

 

By Victor B. Neuburg

 

Published in the Theosophical Review

London, England

February 1909

(page 550)

 

 

A LOST SPIRIT

 

To Freda Wilson

 

 

I pass by darkened windy ways,

Through bog and dripping heather;

I flash before the silver rays

The moon holds tight together.

I sing beneath the waning moon;

An ancient god-forgotten rune

Springs to my lips to taste, and soon

The way behind with light is strewn.

 

O silent city silver-lit,

O rainy roads reflecting

Tall houses where the old ghosts flit,

Their shadows thin projecting

Across my path—the street-lamps glare

Before my soft eyes everywhere.

Ah! men forget my face is fair,

The tangled glory of my hair.

 

O sobbing wind! O hedges dark!

O hills bereft and lonely!

They’ve snatched the hidden boundary-mark,

And left the ruins only.

Dimly the flickering shadows stray

Across the lonely hill-side way:

Why should I weep and howl and pray?

They sleep, and wait the empty day.

 

O dream of the red olden time!

O clash of armour splendid!—

A string of wind-begotten rime,

And all their pain was ended!

O lonely sea! O lonely earth!

O dying art of glorious mirth!

My song, my song is little worth

To bring their bastard seed to birth!

 

What need of me in thunder-flash?

What need in battle story?

What need among the whitened ash

Of old far-winnowed glory?

They call me not to birth-bed throes;

Invoke me not with gold and rose;

The summer wanes, the summer grows,

They call me not from fire or snows.

 

I linger by the cottage-door

When twilight sings of sorrow;

I flit around the gorse-strewn moor,

And all the gold I borrow.

But in mine eyes my doom is set,

Yea! in their golden-glooming fret

Is woven the divine regret,

And ah! my birth-time is not yet.