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Correspondence from Wilfred Talbot Smith Aleister Crowley
29 Oct 28
C.F.
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Very pleased to get your letter. One cannot gauge by your letters just what is happening on this mundane plane on account of your supreme optimism, but letter from Yorke [Gerald Yorke] does seem to indicate matters are beginning to move in a favorable way. . . .
. . . Feeling that O Jacobi [Oliver Jacobi] displayed a considerable ineptitude. I gave him a straight talk. It appears afterwards that I turned him inside out and upside down. He claims to have had a very miserable time. He has got over it alright and there is a marked change in him for the better remarked by Estai [Jane Wolfe]. He was all balled up about sex.
Likewise the Blym's household has been badly stirred up by the introduction to of what the mother of the two girls calls a black magician.
I mentioned the two girls in a former letter. At first I alternated but B either got jealous over my attention to M or else peaved because I would not foot the whole bill when she got pregnant. Leaving aside details, M moved out and lives alone.
B has considerable warmth of nature but is full of inhibitions. M on the other hand is most exceptionally free but quite a problem in other respects. With nine years of married life to her credit, now getting a divorce, she had never known the pleasure of love. So disliked the men that she would give way. I almost sweat blood, so to speak before I break in spite of mental willingness on her part. And so far have only succeeded when I make a "little boat of my tongue".
She shows tractability and is very anxious to do just what I tell her, partly, as she says, not to disappoint you. Send a message, she will be pleased.
Which would you consider the best conditions from a magical point of view. Little natural passion but union mainly through free of will and experimental interest. Or passionate desire towards union. Perhaps the will effort is equal in both cases; in the one to drive on the steed in the other to prevent it running away. Anyhow I've found on one occasion of 2 hours the effort in the first case considerable.
I hope you will not find this all very wearying. I don't know but that I would, just as soon you found fault as commend me I think they are equally good.
I have always had an idea that some day I would be of real use to the cause, so I hope there will be some real news to give you some time. . . . I sent Yorke £5 to day and promised £10 every first from now on and I may do better than that. I sent him the 20 dollars planned because I had it saved for my vacation.
Very fraternally.
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