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Correspondence from Jane Wolfe to Karl Germer
[Undated: circa late April 1946]
Jack's [Jack Parsons] letter to 666 of March 6. I. last saw Jack but shortly before the experience mentioned took place. He told me at this time he had been assigned this Work. After receiving the letter, I felt sure he must have already been under way when he spoke to me.
As to its validity to provide a suitable vehicle, I could not pass judgment. We both know how tricky the mind can be, and eagerness to achieve a given end could color it. Still, I am accepting it. I found this morning my adoration of the Sun was colored by that acceptance.
I wish to add, however, a matter which could disturb me, if I would let it: "utmost secrecy".
"Utmost secrecy" would for me mean a personal report without even the intermediary of a typist, if I had to write by hand. And why the 3 letters to Grady [Grady McMurtry], Roy [Roy Leffingwell] and myself, thrilling, flattering though they be? I seek an answer with the following:—
1) In experience in these hazardous matters; i.e. their subtlety and delicate balance.
2) The kid blowing about his prowess. Jack took a beating when Grady was here. This may be a running up of his flag once more.
3) A quality with which you are no doubt familiar: The undisciplined heeds of his love nature.
At present Jack could smash and do violence to things & people—himself included—if too long thwarted. I include in this, of course, close associations with those near & dear to him—those who feed and nourish his various hungers. And he pours himself generously for such. To get rid of Smith [Wilfred Talbot Smith], he had to transfer his affections to Aleister, for which he expressed regret, because he "would later have to break up his adoration of Aleister to free himself." (His dual nature which, though potential only at present must be reckoned with.)
There are two statements called up from memory, which caused my notes of yesterday. I quote them now accurately: "extreme secrecy" and danger of "abortion".
On page 1 he says "agency chosen to assist the birth, which is now accomplished." How then, "abortion" on the second page?
There is here a mis-statement of fact, or a wrong use of word, which needs examination. Or am I interpreting erroneously? Or, not going far enough?
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