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Aleister Crowley Diary Entry Sunday, 17 March 1918
Key to dramatis personae: Aleister Crowley is T. or Therion, or 666. He is represented by Amalantrah in the temple of the seeress' vision.
Roddie Minor, or Eve is Soror Achitha (variously spelled Ahita, Achita, Ahitha), or 555. She is the egg or altar in the temple.
Marie Lavroff or Röhling is Soror Olun, or 156, and is the Tree in the temple.
Mrs Elsa Lincke is Soror Bazedon and possibly 444, being the Lion in the temple.
Charles Stansfeld Jones is Frater Arcteon, O.I.V.V.I.O., Nemo and 777. He is the Child in the temple.
Amalantrah the Wizard is 729 and represents 666 or A.C. in the temple.
In Temple Marie [Marie Lavroff]. 383 To make covenants about Prince of Wands.
87: (Determined.) 18 Tarot Card. Obj[ect] = Luna. (87 seems very lunar no.)
17: To build or construct Temple of Nuit. (High Priestess of Temple of Nuit.)
T[herion]: What number confirms idea of building Temple of Nuit?
A[chitha]: 10 Pantacles. ( = wealth—Mercury in Virgo.)
T[herion]: Pure number in Qabalah for same?
A[chitha]: 187. (Magic writings of swastika.)
Thelema Divine about omen for whole Maine incident.
'Liber XXVII'. A nun appears. (No 17. The sensualists.) This is a promise.
Liber CCXX. Cap. 2 verse 63 "Thou art exhaust" etc. ( . . . ) = Inspiration through smiling.
117 = Fog, darkness; guide, duke. 9 x 13.
Whole = sex, foundation, support of temple. (P.S.: Her name is MUSTHRHION = 1178 = XVII = 2 = 589 Viror = 19 = 31.)
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8:40 Arcteon [Charles Stansfeld Jones] begins aethyr experiment.
9:08 Arcteon says clock starts to go much quicker.
9:18 Speeding up of time sense.
9:22 Owing to the quickening of time, slight pain holding ether in lungs, is relieved because . . . of quickening of time sense.
9:30 Did get past anaesthetic stage because he found that what we said about putting cork in bottle was True. When you first smell it, you think it's too pungent, later (a moral lesson).
9:33 ( . . . ) Arcteon has heard T[herion] snore since he took E[ther] last week end. You have to stand the full strength of a thing before you enjoy it.
9:37 Now at the stage where he can understand what Achitha meant about being afraid of it. The barrier put there by Ego—not particularly anxious to have it broken down. The passing from consciousness back to normal again must be a perfectly definite plane to most people.
9:45 Inherent fear found by Arcteon of shutting mouth of bottle even after found Truth that you could take as much as you wanted. The danger of drug taking arrives at point where you do not know whether drug is friend of enemy.
9:50 Have come to point where I open my eyes in order to see whether I am conscious or not. Sight is required to know whether one is conscious.
9:54 When you are once used to E[ther] you can drink it. It is hard to destroy consciousness itself. It is hard to become unconscious.
9:55 Getting easy on higher planes of ( . . . ) The real stage when T[herion] reminded me to bring something out. (?) Surprising.
10:03 If you hadn't been at 93, I wouldn't have said anything.
10:30 Reached stage where you can breathe ether through nose and mouth. Fear of death simply fear of loss of consciousness. Cowardly to speak so much of fear. Stage of having killed subconsciousness.
10:31 Death superfluous. Now understands why Achitha laughed when taking too much. Also understands how absurd it is to say this. Important note. Change of consciousness = change of rapidity of vibration. Understand true point between sub-consciousness and unconsciousness.
10:55 Reached stage when he is going to hang onto bottle as long as possible.
11:03 Repetition of putting cork on a higher plane. Understands why drug taken. Laughs when others laugh.
10:10 Consciousness as breath.
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