Meredith Starr Diary Entry

Wednesday, 3 August 1910

Eureka!

Have I not worshipped Love in many lands

And many worlds, in countless lives, ere now?

Have I not played with Death and Laughed with Life,

Plunged needlessly, headlong in reckless strife?

Have I not flung fair flowers with lavish hands,

And wreathed green garlands round about my brow?

Have I not done these things, and many more,

With weary hands, and weary, sated lips?

What need then to repeat what I have done?

There is no need! I know that I have won

The difficult entrance to the nameless Door

Past which the bondage of existence slips.

Henceforth I cease to be; I am not I;

I am the sun, the earth, the sea, the sky;

Yet none of these can hold me; far beyond,

The old enchantment beckons with its fond,

Alluring witchery so long asleep,

And queen-like towers above the starry deep.

(Southsea)

Breathing etc.

Time. 9.15 — 9.45 p.m. In 10 — out 20. about.

Results.

Spinning round 'sensation' did not recur. . . . otherwise results were the same as yesterday—but not so pronounced. Saw purple.

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