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Jane Wolfe Diary Entry circa March 1939
The sum total of Max's [Max Schneider] remarks: that Wilfred [Wilfred Talbot Smith] is totally inadequate, only the outer form given the people downstairs Sunday nights—nothing of the spiritual inwardness of Thelema; that Wilfred and Regina [Regina Kahl] create a bad atmosphere in the Temple; that he and Georgia [Georgia Schneider] constantly hear bad reports, here, there, and the other place; that repercussions are about to take place that will blow the place to pieces; that I should go with them immediately, etc.
Georgia is distinctly and definitely hostile, spiteful and venomous. She would ruthlessly tear down the entire structure if she could. The Work is quite secondary with her. Her hatred of Regina, plus Max's influence, and the desire to see him exalted to Smith's status back of it I think, though Max says; 'No O.T.O. activity on his part.'
G.[eorgia] is a married woman, a mother, had a Lesbian period, men and homes with them, virtuously says she 'had to go to bed' with W.T.S. [Wilfred Talbot Smith] when she first came to Winona Blvd. She was living with George Daly at the time, she took on Smith, opened Tibor's pants when he took her home, then settled on Max after meeting him. Yet she "had to go to bed with Smith." The harlot gone righteous and virtuous!
During our discussion of Profess house disciplines, the subject of DeMoroff [Jane Wolfe's lover] came up. Regina: 'of what use is he! I can't see any! Lazy, just looking for a berth. Married his wife because she had money.' (The berth hardly holds where I am concerned, my dear girl!) That DeMoroff might have a generous impulse is quite beyond her grasp it seems. And this he has. Wilfred answered by saying: 'DeMoroff was asked to speak before an audience of some 1500 or 1600 people last night (Mankind United) and acquitted himself favorably enough to be asked to speak at Bakersfield and, have all expenses paid for him. And that he, Smith, would not be so invited.'
These people look mess, true, the unskilled laboring class, small shop keepers, restaurants, etc., as well as of the better working classes. But these are the rough hewn rock of the base of the pyramid and two million such would mean some power. These are the people, too, to whom many Equinoxes went through Russell. Their stand: Abolishment of War and Poverty. Equal opportunity for all, but what is then made of the opportunity is up to the individual.
And I? I see Adonai! Blessed Adonai! I must not fail DeMoroff.
Then later, that month: Jane reported: "Lawrence here, through with Max! It seems he ran into Georgia downtown and 'she insisted on my going to Max's office', where Max proceeded to go after him about the Culling [Louis Culling] place.
"DeMoroff, it seems, gathers up people and takes them to Max's Saturday afternoon gatherings. (DeMoroff does attract many people). 'After Max's meeting was over, I assure you, not during it', and the group were, in the social stage, he was asked by one or two for information regarding Mankind United. Of course he spoke enthusiastically for it, as is his wont about any subject that interests him. This Max and Georgia resented and they spoke to him about it. They also accuse him of being 'dictatorial', etc. Today was the last straw and DeMoroff sailed into Max and Georgia accusing them of smugness, conceit, derived from personal communication with 666, and vows he will not go there any more Saturdays. will remain Max's Probationer—signed for a year, but off Max. And that is that! Lawrence has weakness, many good qualities—being proud and fearless he needs mighty careful handling.
The speech and attitude of Regina regarding DeMoroff shows how we can, and so frequently do, limit ourselves when another personality annoys. In DeMoroff's case, she would not like him, naturally, he is much like herself. Values himself highly, impulsive and not too well set up intellectually. She sees him as a possible 'menace'. Paul Seckler does not trust him. Wilfred had no use whatever for him, but is coming around and said, 'Well, anyhow, which one of us, on going places, says "Do what thou wilt, etc., Love is the law," etc., which DeMoroff does every time he goes on the platform.'
The 12th Aethyr gives me a larger comprehension of BABALON, more understanding of the Cup of Abominations. And of the Admonition, "Let her be loud and adulterous". One is apt to limit these words to the Christian concepts alone, while they embrace so very much more than the sexual union of two people. This yielding up of the Personality to Life, to circumstances, as does water, accepting every obstruction, curving round it, adjusting to all levels. What a mighty symbol!
Evening Sun-Moon. He [DeMoroff] fell sound asleep beside me and stayed the night. I marvel at my feeling regarding him as compared with Wilfred. W. gives me the credit for an initiation summer of '31 and of bringing Regina that November. And so little response on my side—under will from start to finish. I flow toward Lawrence and for this reason, I suppose, there is something sacred about him. I surprised him, as well as myself—and 64 hard winters. God a'mighty!
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